Broken Love [COMPLETED BUT EDITING]

Chapter 28: Forever mine

The next day, I spent flirting with James, helping Will. But my other friends weren't so happy that I was spending so much time with the two boys. But I couldn't help it. Will and James understood me in a way that most people didn't. It took years for my old friends to understand me like that. The only reason they did was because we grew up together, you had no choice but to be friends. 

But these two were people who understood me. Sometimes they knew me better than I knew myself. I had always wanted to have guy friends. But I had never expected such a friendship to be so satisfying. I felt like no matter what happened, I had support. I used to think that about Prem, but I only talked to him so often. I saw Will everyday.

And my relationship with James...

I had never hoped for him. For someone so kind, and calm, and cute, and damn sexy. He had no idea. I spent so much time staring at his muscles it was scary. And then I found out he was ticklish. Best day ever! Perfect excuse to touch him, and get to those rock-hard muscles. 

He and I texted so often I hadn't even realized it. We texted one day.

J- I hadn't realized how often we texted.

M- is it that often?

J- yea. all day n then at night

M- oh shit

J- mhmm

M- but I don't wanna stop texting u

J- ik its my fav thing 

M- but my friends hate me bc of all the time I spend with u n will

J- nah they want attention from u

M- but I want attention from U

J- lmfao aww

M- 😘

J- teach me

M- lmfao I will

J- anyways is there anymore bout Edward that u didn't tell me n will?

I had spent the last two days explaining my old toxic relationship with Ed to the boys. They weren't happy.

M- he used to grab my things n ended up leaving bruises. he used to body slam me into walls. he used to pull my arms n legs. he grabbed all my pencils, n papers n broke them. 

J- good anymore?

M- he used to call me bitch and whore and idiot and slut

J- im glad ur finally telling someone

M- its in the past. its fine

J- no its not! u shoulda told someone. u don't understand how pissed I was yesterday when u told me

M- nah u were mad chill

J- trust me I may not show it but its still there

M- damn I'd love to see u mad. what would u do if ed asked me out

J- tell him to fight me

M- really?

J- ur mine ofc I would

M- awwwww

J- does he have more muscle than will?

M- from the pic I saw of will n the muscles I felt on ed I don't think so

J- ok good that means I'm safe

M- omg 

J- explain the prem n raj ppl plz

M- I used to love raj. prem was his younger bro who was my bff. he was there for me when no one else was.

J- It seems like I woulda liked prem

M- u woulda. he supported me so much even with chris

J- u never finished telling me that story

M- Chris n I were friends. we flirted a lot, but I bluffed about everything, he thought I was experienced with guys. so I ended up kissing him. but it turns out he might have impregnated his sister. so ...

J- how old was he?

M- 18

J- shit

M- he was a volunteer at my school. the worst part was when I found out Vanessa had kissed him. She knew about the whole sister thing!

J- damn. what was the kiss like

M- its hard to explain. all instinct

J- so that doesn't count as ur first kiss

M- thats what prem said

J- I agree with this guy

I stopped texting him for a while because of my classical Indian music classes. 

J- wait u don't talk to prem anymore?

M- no. he stopped. 

J- was he like jealous of raj?

M- yea maybe. 

J- wtf is wrong with this guys

M- he didn't like me talking bout crushes I think.he never did. n he stopped me

J- I know how he feels

M- EX crushes babe

J- so who u crushing on now?

M- idk 

J- well ur IN LOVE with me

M- yes I am. u don't even understand how happy I am that I have u

J- well u r mine

M- awwww. all my old crushes were abusive, cheating, liars

J- wtf is wrong with them. did they know u?

M- no they didn't

J- well ur mine. and I love u

We talked all coupley for a while before I had to stop. This boy was a distraction to my life. But if I didn't have him, I wouldn't have had the strength to do much. There were so many moments when I just wanted to give up. But he was always in my mind, pushing me forward. I had fantasized relationships more than once. I'd made up thousands of scenarios when guys liked me. But none could compare to this. To a guy who actually liked me, who I didn't have to pretend liked me. 

I was definitely in love with James. But there was only one month until he left. How was I supposed to survive?