Jimin went to the donut shop.
He looked through the glass door,
With a sign hung that said 'closed',
Jimin wanted to be hopeful,
Jimin hoped to see Yoongi,
At the counter,
Playing with his phone.
But,
He's still not there.
Jimin pushed the glass door and went in.
He recalled the first time he went in here.
Yoongi was wearing an apron, still wearing his nerdy glasses.
Jimin picking donuts for his dad and himself.
Yoongi pouncing on him, and slowly wrote his name onto Jimin's hand.
Jimin cried in tears of joy,
Reunited with his first friend.
And his last.
Since Yoongi isn't here, Jimin is in charge of the whole shop.
He sat at Yoongi's place, and saw colorful sticky notes on the counter table.
' Jiminie~ I love you '
' Jiminie!!! You looked cute as always '
' You're so pure, my sweet angel '
' Saranghaeyo Jimin-ssi '
' I'm such a lucky guy ♡ '
He imagined Yoongi, writing those when Jimin was standing by the door, greeting the customers. He would look up, to see if Jimin was looking, then wrote those down, and stick them onto the table.
Jimin looked through all of the papers Yoongi had been secretly writing, his tears wouldn't stop falling. His cheeks became rose red, his lips were trembling, and
Feeling happy yet numb at the same time.
Yoong, where on earth are you?
I miss you so much.
Jimin folded the sticky notes and puts them in his pocket.
As usual,
Some customers came.
Jimin put on the fakest geniune smile he had to put on,
And smiled through the entire day.
He felt dirty inside.
For smiling so broadly when Yoongi's missing.
Jimin didn't want to clean the house when he returned home.
' I'll let things stay this way '
' The memories will stay too '
Although this house is already a wreck, but Jimin wanted things to stay.
But, Yoongi didn't.
Jimin never eats alone.
This is the first time in years.
Him,
Eating alone in Yoongi's house.
Facing a white wall,
Munching down his food,
He cooked by himself.
Usually, Yoongi will stop Jimin from cooking as Jimin would constantly hurt himself.
Jimin tried to help,
But Yoongi insisted him sitting on the couch, not touching anything.
He doesn't want him to get hurt.
Not his angel.
Well, at least that's what Jimin thinks.
Jimin starts doubting on their relationship,
Why would Yoongi leave him just like that?
Quietly.
Without a single notice,
Or a little hint or signal.
And just left Jimin broken,
Teared.
Jimin threw his eating utensils on his plate, piled with tasteless food in defeat and also a bit irritated.
He thinks Yoongi's playing mind games with him.
Jimin smiles blankly and gives a cold chuckle.
" Damnit Yoongi. Are you happy now? Are you glad seeing me like this? Destroyed? Crumbling into tiny pathetic bits? "
Jimin covered his face with his two palms and got emotional.
" Please, remember that I'll always love you. "
This was the last thing Yoongi told Jimim before leaving.
It circled Jimin's mind and Jimin couldn't stop recalling Yoongi looking into his eyes, his soul in particular.
He thought Yoongi was sincere.
Geniune.
Loved Jimin no matter what.
That was one of the happiest days of his entire life.
He was cheerful, and foolish he thought.
Jimin took off his hands, and stared at the ground, blankly.
" If you really love me, why did you leave in the first place? "
Jimin mummured.
Jimin felt his palms becoming wet,
He wants to mistaken them for sweat.
Those were tears.
And he knew it.
He just couldn't help it.
He needs Yoongi.
By his side.
Now.
He couldn't face the world without him being there with him.
Jimin thought of Yoongi's always charming smile.
His confidence.
His attracting gaze.
Jimin recalled Yoongi smiling at him, stroking his blonde wavy hair.
" I'll always be there for you, you know that right? " Yoongi mummured softly.
Jimin started to cry.
" All I want, is Yoongi to be here. With me. By my side. Is that too much to ask? "
Jimin sobbed as he curled into a ball, his knees touching his chest and his head digged deep between.
" Yoongi-ahh. I miss you. "
