Karly-
Man, Kendrick would kill me if he was here and found out what I was going to do. Well August invited me to his single release party and I'm nervous as fuck. I ain't been no where with him in a long ass time; we talking Years here. This do not feel right, my husband would be ready to dig my muthafuckin' grave right now.
I'm all dressed, I'm just smoking a blunt right now to cope with my nerves. I'm tryna get higher then life. I'm even sweating right now. I heard a knock on my door. "Who is it ?" I answered. "August" he said. I opened the door. "Is this okay to wear ?" I asked. "Cause I'm really not tryna dress up like that" I added. "That's fine, you actually look very beautiful right now" he said. "Thanks" I said.
"Ight put that shit out and come with me" he said. "Nah nigga I'm not putting my shit out" I demanded. I walked out my door and locked it behind me. By the time we got there, I was high as hell. I could barely keep my eyes open. We walked in the party and there was cameras flashing everywhere. I was cheesing hard as hell.
August stopped in front of Asap Rocky, and I ain't even realize. "Asap this Karly" he introduced. "Wassup" I said smiling. "Damn you look high as fuck" he said. I started laughing hard as hell like he said a funny ass joke a something. Asap was talking to me and August before walking off and going to put a drink.
"You want a drink or something ?" Asked August. I thought about Khadeedee and my other kids. "Nahh I'm good, I just need some water" I said. "Come on girl loosen up" he said grabbing my hand. I must admit. I was scared to get a drink cause I know I wouldn't stop. I would start to think about Kendrick and get emotional and I would be sloppy drunk.
"I am loosened, I'm high as hell" I said. "Just go get me some damn water" I demanded. He went over and got me some water. I drunk that water fast as hell. August was looking at me like I was doing something wrong. "What you looking at ?" I asked. "You, you look so damn sexy" he said. I looked at him for a while. I started laughing. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" I said.
August looked like he was annoyed. "I'm sorry, it's the weed making me laugh like this" she said. He directed me toward a back room in the lil place. We talked and talked. "You been looking kinda, stressed lately" he said. "Yeah, I've been stressed out" I agreed. "My kids, especially my 2 year old, she is a hot mess" I added. "Then my husband gone" I said.
I paused for a minute staring into space. "You okay" asked August. A tear fell down my face. "Yeah I'm good" I said smiling. "You just had me thinking about some shit" I added. August looked me in my eyes. "I can tell" he said. "I can see it in your eyes girl you hurting" he said as he rubbed my face. I grabbed his hand off my face and held on to them. "I'm fine" I lied. "It's just a lot of emotions with me right now, but I'm.." I said.
I was interrupted cause August had started kissing me. "Stop" I said pushing his face away. This felt wrong I felt like I was cheating or something. "Relax" he said as he grabbed me and pulled me onto his lap. I straddled his lap and he pulled me towards him and started kissing me again.
I was so turned on. I felt my self grind on him a little bit. We was going at it, tonguing each other down. Asap busted in the door. "Woahhh, woahh" he said. I got up fast as hell. "My bad I ain't mean to spoil y'all lil party, but I just wanted to say I had a good time and congrats bro" he said. I was so embarrassed. "Thanks man, next time knock" said August.
Asap left the room and left the party. "Let's get outta here, for somebody else bust in" I said smiling. "Nahh baby come on let's finish" he said grabbing my asses. I pushed him. "Nope" I said. He smacked his teeth. We left out the room and went in the main area of the party.
August took me home late. Soon as I got inna house I got undressed and laid in my bed. I was so tired and that weed had me relaxed. I feel so bad right now, Kendrick would strangle me to death if he found out about what just happened. I miss my husband so much. I dream about his every night. That's when he come back to me.
