my babygirl → jack gilinsky

chapter twenty three ♡

lillian ♡

"gooood morning" jack dragged the word out as he reached over and kissed my cheek lightly.

his morning voice was just so.. so cute.

"hey" i giggled.

"so, today i think i'm going to take you on a date, a very beautiful date that i think you'll like" he winked.

mm

"okay" i smiled.

he smiled back, then his phone started ringing.

"hold that thought" i said and put the phone to his ear, his smile instantly fading away.

"oh, uh no, not yet" he said quietly.

"i know, i know. i'm just waiting for the right time" jack said again, louder.

"not today"

"okay, fine, i'll do it." he said and pulled the phone away.

he looked at me.

"what's going on?" i asked him.

he sighed running his hand through his hair.

"no, don't make me" he whispered mostly to himself.

"jack, is it bad?" i asked suddenly nervous.

"no, no not really, well it might be.. i don't know." he sighed and sat up.

"will you still go on a date with me after i tell you?" he asked.

i smiled at this.

"of course" i said.

"you remember how i asked you about if i'd ever go on tour again?" he asked.

he's going on tour again. that's the first thing that popped up in my head.

everything is going back downhill, i'm going to be alone again, without my bestfriend, now my boyfriend by my side.

i won't know how to be a normal person, i can't handle myself alone, i can't.

i was freaking out by him leaving because last time my mom died and i felt alone and now i'm freaking out because i don't want to feel scared again.

that pain, i don't want to feel it again, it physically hurts.

my breathing was getting heavier and i guess jack could tell.

"woah, lily, lily, are you okay?" he asked with this worried expression on his face.

i tried taking a deep breath.

"y-yeah, fine" i said softly.

"you're freaking out, please don't. i know what you're thinking." he whispered.

"i don't want to be alone" i sighed and leaned my head on him.

he rubbed my back softly.

"i know, i know." he said.

i pulled away and looked him in the eyes.

"when do you leave?" i asked him with a sigh.

"may twenty fifth" he stated.

it's may twenty third.

it's too soon. he's leaving me again, and that makes me scared.

"i'm proud of you" i managed to give him a smile.

"you don't need to tell me, i know you are." he smiled lightly and placed a soft kiss on my lips.

"so about this date?" i asked pulling away.

"tonight at seven, dress casual" he smiled and kissed my cheek quickly before jumping out the bed and walking out the room.

i smiled sitting there, i can't believe he's actually mine.

i'm so in love with him, it's so crazy.

i got up and walked in the living room, seeing johnson and sammy playing fort nite.

boys, i swear.

all they do nowadays.

i walked into the kitchen where jack was.

"here you go" he smiled handing me a cup of chocolate milk.

he knows me so well.

"thank you" i smiled and started drinking some of it.

"anyone partying tonight?" the door swung open revealing nate.

"hm?" i said looking up.

"nobody has plans tonight?" he asked.

"i have plans" i said.

"me too" jack said from the kitchen chair.

"johnson, sammy?!" nate called.

"what?" johnson yelled obviously not paying attention.

"i think that's their plans" i said.

"what are your guys plans then?" he asked.

"i'm taking her on a date" jack said.

"oh crap" he suddenly yelled and pulled his phone out.

he dialed a number and put the phone to his ear.

i heard yelling from the other end but i couldn't make out who he was talking to.

"i know.. i'm sorry. no babe seriously, i would've, i'm sorry zoey" he was saying as he was getting cut off then i heard a beep meaning she hung up.

i started laughing.

he just glared at me.

"can you talk to her? please?" nate asked.

"no, she's not my girlfriend, but you can" i said.

"girlfriends are confusing" he groaned.

"not really" jack said.

i laughed at nate.

"stop it lillian" he called as he walked out the house.