Conditional Love

Chapter 16

Magnus is freaking out. He is one hundred percent, legit, freaking the fuck out right now. Alexander wants to go out for coffee with him.

What does he want to say? Does he want to get back together? Oh god! What if he wants me to stop all communication with him? Alec did text saying that it was a date, that's gotta count for something, right? Right?

Magnus wasn't able to sleep at all the night before because of his freak out. He made a promise to Alexander that he would do everything he can to gain his trust back, and he's not going to give up on him. If Alec were to completely cut ties from Magnus, he wasn't sure what he'd do. Magnus couldn't picture his world without Alexander.

Magnus decides that it's time to get out of bed and face the day, that and the Chairman seems to be ready for his breakfast. Chairman Meow runs ahead of Magnus, and every time Magnus slows down, the Chairman will stop, then run back to Magnus and try to match his pace. Magnus can't help but chuckle at the fact that his cat sometimes acts like a dog. Once in the kitchen, Magnus gets the Chairman his food, then starts cutting up some fruit for himself. After fifteen minutes of picking at his breakfast, Magnus decides to take a hot shower. Maybe that will relax me enough to no longer feel like I'm going to have a heart attack, Magnus thinks as he walks towards his bathroom, Chairman Meow close on his heels.

Thirty minutes later, Magnus is standing inside his closet trying to find the right thing to wear. If he thought he was nervous for their first date, that was nothing compared to how he feels now. Magnus has a feeling that there's more on the line today than there was all those months ago. He finally decides on a lavender button up shirt with white pinstripes, a cream colored cashmere v-neck sweater, dark blue bootcut jeans, and brown leather shoes and belt. Now that his outfit is picked out, he moves back to his bathroom and puts purple chalk in his hair, spikes it by up using his glitter gel, then moves on to his makeup. He uses light purple eyeshadow, black eyeliner, and mascara, giving him a smokey eye. Once he deems himself ready, and takes a deep breath to calm his nerves, Magnus grabs his phone, wallet, and keys, and heads out the door.

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Magnus walks into JJ's and immediately sees Alec sitting at a table. Taking another deep breath, Magnus goes to join him.

"Hey. Have you been waiting long?" Magnus asks as he sits down and takes the cup that Alec offers him.

"Just sat down. I figured since I got here first, I would go ahead and order ours drinks. I hope you don't mind? I know you usually order Earl Grey with cream and sugar." Alec says. Magnus can't help but smile and nod in thanks.

"So, I was pretty surprised by your text last night..." Magnus lets the unasked question hang in the air. He's terrified of what Alec wants to talk about, so he can't bring himself to look Alec in the eye. He most definitely isn't expecting the next words out of Alec's mouth.

"I forgive you," Alec blurts out, causing Magnus to look up in surprise.

"O-okay... thanks..." Magnus says, not knowing how to respond to Alec's declaration. He is somewhere between shocked and overwhelmed, but it's a good feeling. "What made you change your mind?"

"Honestly, the night that I went home to talk to Jace... well, after we cleared the air with what my parents did, he asked me about my love life. I ended up talking about you for the rest of the night. Then when Izzy came over yesterday, Jace and Clary ended up telling her all about us. They all helped me see that you didn't do what you did intentionally. Clary also reminded me that you weren't the one who initiated the kiss, but it was that woman who did." Alec shrugs, not meeting Magnus' eyes.

"No, Alexander. I was the only person in our relationship who screwed up. You had every right to act the way you did." Magnus argues.

"I think... I think I want to give you another chance, if you'll have me? But it's still going to take some time before I fully trust you again." Alec says with uncertainty. The only thing Magnus can do is stand up, pull Alec to his feet, his left hand goes to the back of Alec's neck while his right hand grips Alec's waist, and crashes their lips together. Alec remains frozen, causing Magnus to start pulling away, but it seems that Alec recovers, sliding one arm around Magnus' neck, while the other wraps firmly around Magnus' waist. Magnus traces his tongue on Alec's bottom lip, seeking entrance. Alec immediately lets him in. The kiss is filled with passion, longing, love, and everything else that Magnus has missed being without Alec for the last three weeks. It's the most mind blowing kiss that Magnus has ever given.