*A lot of greys anatomy inspiration*
[Joeys POV]
"Joey your not seriously still continuing to avoid her"-Charles asked as he sat on my couch next to Chad Aaron and Kenzie
"Yes"-I said plainly and emotionless as I sat there looking at the lauded movie on the tv
"You don't miss her or ever think your doing the wrong thing"-Charles asked looking at me even though I didn't want to give him my attention
"Charles I'm hurting"-I said raising my voice at how annoying he's gotten within two seconds
"How"-he asks challenging me as the others watched
"I have feelings for her but I know I don't deserve her I know I can't have her and it's killing me slowly everyday"-I said looking down at my hands in my lap
"Then go back to her"-Aaron said looking at me "your just hurting the both of you for no reason there obviously something between you two and everyone knows it so stop hiding your feelings and acting like a douche go back to her...before she gets over you"-Aaron continued calmly
He hated us together
Why is he agreeing with Charles
"I can't"-I disagreed
"Why"-Kenzie asked agitated
"Because I'm bad for her"-I said not looking at any of the but at the ground
"No acting like your somebody your not is bad for you and her"-Kenzie said like it was obvious
"I'm not acting like some else this is who I am"-I said raising my tone and glaring at her
"No this is who you think your supposed to be Joey your not protecting her by making barriers"-Kenzie said anger in her tone and facial expression
"Believe it or not Kenzie but I am and you and her are just to stupid to realize it"-I said putting my head in my hands
"Did you love her"-chad asked calmly
"What"-I asked looking at him seeing as he was calm
How is he always calm and collected
"Did you love her"-chad asked again trying to be more clear
"I don't know"-I said before the room was filled with sighs all from everyone but me and chad
"It's a simple question yes or no and you can't say 'I don't know' because you do and so do I"-chad said looking at me still calm even though everyone was was angry with me
"It doesn't matter"-I mumbled just loud enough for them to be able to hear it
"Why not"-chad asked calmly as his tone was smooth
"I'm afraid"-I responded "I'm afraid she'll love me as much as I love her and she'll get hurt"
"You didn't love her"-Kenzie said shaking her head and glaring at me "you just didn't want to be alone or maybe she was good for you ego or maybe she made you feel good about your miserable life but you did not lover her...because you don't destroy people you love"-Kenzie yelled glaring at me as her eyes started tear up
(Yes I did get inspo from greys anatomy)
"I did love her"-I said looking at her knowing I was admitting it my eye vision got blurry and a warm tear left my eye after I blinked "I love her with every ounce in me"
"You don't leave people you love"-Kenzie stated standing up I frustration
"Some people are meant to fall in love with each other...but not meant to be together."-I said feeling my cheeks heat up from the sudden rush of letting it all out
"Joey your hurting her more by avoiding her"-Charles said sitting next to me
"Maybe but maybe not"
"Are you really that afraid that your gonna let fear get in the way of this"-Aaron said standing up from annoyance
"I guess so"-I said emotionless
"Maybe you should stop being afraid. And just love her as hard as you can fuck your walls just jump there is no better time for bravery than in love and war"-Aaron said crossing his arms over his chest as he shifted his weight to his other foot "cause I swear if you don't get her back she will move on and your gonna regret it so stop putting all these emotions on one innocent girl you fell in love with"-Aaron yelled as I just continued to look at the ground with my head in my hands
"I can't just make that decision"-I said letting out a breath I didn't know I was holding
(More greys anatomy inspo)
"Joey you need to realize at some point, you have to make a decision boundaries don't m keep other people out they fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your life drawing lines and making boundaries or.....you can live your life crossing them"-Kenzie said as she grabbed her jacket and walked out the front door.
"Maybe she's right....but I might also be"-I said before storming up the stairs and into my room locking the door.
While I was in my room the only thing that was clear to me out of everything I've learned and I know the only thing that was clear was....I love her
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End HELLOOO GOODBYEEE LY
-Lexi💗
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