Bad Reputation

Ch.47 connection?

[Annas POV]

I used to love pretending me and Alex would always pretend  like he was a pirate and I was a stolen Mermaid. Me and Kenzie would always pretend we were princesses in a castle. But now pretending has become a thing I've known to hate now a days you don't know who's being genuine and it kills me.

Pretending has made me weak.

I can't pretend anymore.
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"What's going on"-I asked blankly walking up to Kenzie

"What are you talking about"-she asked with a raised eyebrow as she stood next to her locker

"You know something I don't"-I stated with a dry tone and expression

"And what's that"

"What's that weird feeling between me and joey"-I asked "I know you know more then your letting on"

"I don't know as much as you think I do"-she said looking at me still leaning against the metal locker

"Well what do you know"

"When two people.... meet and there...destined there is nothing else but the yearning to be close to them the more you know them the stronger it gets"-Kenzie said making me confused

We're destined?
Me and joey are destined?

"The presence of that feeling is felt through a hand held, a voice heard or a smile seen...you and joey have that presence I'm not saying your destined or that your not but there's something between you guys that's like something in a book or movie...a connection"-Kenzie explained only making my mind fall into a deeper whole of confusion.
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What the hell did I open a door to?

I thought I hated pretending but now...I wish I never asked.

I'm usually the concentrated nerd in class but today I couldn't focus on anything.

I couldn't even tell Mr. Willis the difference between Germany's goal in world war 1 vs world war 2 like come on.

I'm out of luck.

I don't understand how one stupid, adorable, cute, dumb, bad boy can cause me to feel so many unfamiliar feelings...and the worst part is I like the feelings...every wing left on of them even the pain because I know I finally have something to lose...but he makes me so confused...all the time.

And what Kenzie said earlier about us being destined...what does that even mean this isn't some type of romance novel this is real life destined isn't a thing...maybe fate but not destiny-

"Anna"-chad asked with a raised eye brow zoning me out of my trance.

"Hmm"-I hummed a response staring at the cold lunch table I was sitting at

"Do you want to hang out with us tonight"-Kenzie asked almost as if she totally forgotten the conversation this morning and it's just a regular day

It's not just a regular day...what the hell does she mean by destined

Does she not realize how much eight she put on my shoulders

Ugh I ca-

"Anna"-chad repeated again before sighing bringing me back out of another pit of confusion