Chocolate ♦ jihan

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9:10 pm

Joshua Hong

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Joshua: Hi, Jeonghan :)

Joshua: Did you miss me?

Jeonghan: Jisoo-ah!

Jeonghan: I missed you. So much.

Jeonghan: You know, we were all devastated after hearing that you.. you know. That you left us.

Jeonghan: They actually plan not to tell me before. I found out after eavesdropping while they comfort Wonwoo.

Joshua: Sorry. 

Jeonghan: No, Jisoo. I should be the one saying sorry.

Jeonghan: Look. I found out about your feelings for me.

Joshua: Oh.

Jeonghan: I've regained my memories too. With the help of your journal of course. Thanks to Seungcheol for giving it to me.

Joshua: Wait, so you had it all this time?!

Joshua: I was searching for it! 

Jeonghan: I didn't know it was yours. He told me that the journal can help me remember. 

Jeonghan: And it did.

Seen at 9:17 pm

Jeonghan: Jisoo..

Joshua: Yeah?

Jeonghan: You're sharing a room with me right?

Joshua: Why? 

Jeonghan: Can we talk?

Seen at 9:20 pm

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"So what do you wanna talk about?"

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"Han, what is it?"

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"I-I'm sorry."

"If this is about years ago, I've already forgiven youㅡ" 

"Josa..."

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"Actually, I have a lot to say. A lot, Jisoo. I wanna tell you everything I have in mind during those years that you weren't by my side. I was hurt. More than I could ever imagine. It hurts because the moment I woke up from my coma, I've learned that you has already left us. I wished I hadn't woke up from my deep slumber then. What's the purpose of the memories I had regained if the person who helped me make them had left?"

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"I regretted. I regret everything I did that hurt you. I blamed and got angry at myself because I was to occupied with other things and didn't notice the way you look at me. My eyesight is okay but why did I feel that I had gone blind? I hate myself."

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"There wasn't a day where I wouldn't regret. But what can I-I do? What's done is done and c-cannot be undone. You left a deep scar and it can't be healed anytime soon. I deserve it though. I've hurt you, and this is what I get for doing so. I r-remember telling you that everyone has the chance to have my heart except you. How careless can I g-get? I know that I've hurt your f-feelings because of those words."

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"I-I'm sorry. I'm r-really s-sorry, J-Jisoo."

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"Jeonghan, s-stop. I hate seeing you cry."

"S-Sorry.."

"Don't be."

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"C-Can I hug you?"

Jisoo smiled warmly before spreading his arms. Jeonghan immediately encircled his arms around his waist and hugged him tightly. He buried his face on Jisoo's shoulder, crying silently as the other hug him back. He caressed Jeonghan's back as he continue to shed tears on his shoulder making it damp. 

"Jisoo-ah.."

"Hmm?"

"I.. I-I love you too.."

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"Why?"

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