Sounded Silence

A mess

(A/N: this chapter is seen as if she was talking to you)

Paula's POV

Oh boy. Where do I even start?

I could've been somebody, y'know? I could've put myself out there and left my mark on the world!

But, that's not the case.

When I was...I don't know, 15? I had my first crush. Teenager stuff. He seemed so astonishing and mysterious when I first saw him, and I knew I hit the jackpot.

Of course, one of his friends decided that it would be a good idea to set me up on a date with him.

Lemme tell ya, that DJ over at Club Fun? That was my crush. In real life, he's a fat slob, eats his own weight in everything-and I mean every fucking thing, and he could sleep through the end of the world.

But since the whole date thing was his friend's idea, he decided to give me a chance. Well, quite a few. We've gone out numerous times, but we've never been "official"

But a few month ago I hooked up with him for the first time in what felt like forever, and now I'm pregnant. And it's his!

What am I gonna do now? I'm not ready for marriage. Don't think I ever will be, either. I wanna keep this kid, even if it is out of wedlock.