*This book is currently being completely re-written, the plot, characters etc WILL change. When I began this book, I was 16, it is not a true reflection of my writing now and therefore no more chapters will be added until I have edited the current c...
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ESME'S POV
FRIDAY 20th OCTOBER 2017
"What?" I gasped at him and watched him stand up and look down at me.
"What if I said I was ready for... something? I don't know, just something with you," he asked me and I found myself standing up in front of him and keeping my gaze locked with his.
"Why are you saying this now? Why didn't you say that before? I'm with Wren now, I can't just leave him for you because that's not fair!" I sighed to him with my heart pounding heavily in my chest.
"It's also not fair to lead him on when you like someone else," he raised an eyebrow at me and I stepped back slightly. He was completely right and I didn't want to admit that to myself because Wren had done everything right and I didn't want to hurt him at all.
"How do you know I don't like him?" I asked quietly, I was scared if I was any louder that someone would hear. Something bad would happen.
"The way you look at him, Angel. It's not the way you look at me and I know you like me, I know you want to like him because he's the safe option, he can make you happy and never hurt you but I'm the one you want. Why can't you just accept that?" Hurt flashed in his eyes but I looked away.
"I don't want to be hurt, though. I want to be with Wren because he cares about me enough to never hurt me, you're bad news and I knew that when I started talking to you but now I'm here and I know I shouldn't be with someone who is bad for me," I told him.
"But you don't like him Esme!" He almost yelled at me. "Can you seriously look at me and say to my face that you don't want me? If you can do that then I will leave you alone and I will avoid you at all costs, I promise," he held his hands in the air defensively.
I couldn't say it. I didn't want him to leave me alone because he was the most interesting and stable thing in my life, he supported me whilst also not trying to "save" me of my anxiety (unlike Wren sometimes) so maybe he was right for me in that way. I didn't know! "Are you alright out here Esme?" I looked around and saw Wren approaching us.
"I thought so," Kyle whispered at me and I avoided his gaze.
"Everything is fine Wren, Kyle was just checking I was okay," I lied to him and he nodded. "I'm tired, do you mind taking me home?" I asked him and he looked behind him at the house.
"We only just got here Es, just stay a bit longer. You'll really enjoy the party!" He tried to persuade me, I could tell he wanted to stay but I could not stand to go back in there.
