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Just wanted to say this is my first fan fic. Sorry if it is garbage, but hey i tried hehe ^¬^. Any who. This contains smut, cursing, and some depression.... Just giving a heads up on that. Im slow at updating just a heads up... If you have any request on the story go ahead and message me directly. I hope you enjoy.. 😍❤😍❤😍❤
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Y/N's POV
Hello, my name is y/n. I am 20 years (if you are not im sorry 😢) and i'm in love with a boy band named BTS!!! Let just say that they saved my life multiple times. Im not a very happy person. Im actually quite a depressed person. I know how depressing... Im depressed almost 100% of the time. Like i said ALMOST all the time, when im not depressed it's because I'm either listening to BTS or watching their videos... I have no life.... Any who! Back to what I was saying. I live alone. My parent and me don't get along. Im the black sheep of the family. We don't talk and I'm not worried about them. They dont care about me and i still care about them. I guess that is life... I have no one in my life. Well, enough about my depressing life... 😢 my bias in BTS is MIN FREAKING YOONGI😍😍. Sorry i fangirled there for a bit..... Haha. My bias wrecker is Jungkook, but i feel like that may change... Jhope is making his way into my heart.... 😱😱. Dont get me wrong all of BTS is GORGEOUS, but Yoongi has my heart... Come to think of it i wouldnt mind having his kids 😶😶. Of course I would never tell him that...
I have one best friend!! She is the prettiest person ive ever met. Her name is B/F/N. She is older then me.
I promised myself that if i lose a certain amount of weight then i would visit South Korea and go to a fan meet... I can't wait. I have a dead line that I have to meet my goal or no fan meet 😭😭, but on the bright side. Im almost there. I just have to wor extra hard. FIGHTING!!!!
Yoongi's pov
Im so stressed..... I don't know what to do.. Big Hit gave us something that has to be done at the next fan meet. Im not ready for this. How could they make us do that. The rest of BTS is okay with it, but I'm not.. I'm not ready for that.... Idk what to do anymore. I guess ill just get it done. Lets hope this goes well.... 😰😰
I just hope i can get out of this depressed state I am in. It is really effecting the other members. I don't know how to get myself out of this one. Usually i dont have any issues getting out of my depression, but for some reason i just can't get out of it this time... I may need to ask for help, but im afraid that ill get judged or laughed at or something. Im not big on asking for help, but i know sometimes it is required in order to get better. I think im just going to take a nap to give my mind a rest... It is really needed.
Back to Y/N's pov
Work out done for the day. I'm started to feel better about my body. My face though that is another story. I'm told that im really gorgeous, but i honestly don't think so. From what i understand shit cant look gorgeous. Oh Well, ill learn to love myself one day..
TIME SKIP (two weeks)
YESH!!!! I met my goal. Im going to go buy my plane ticket and fan meet tickets!! Its in about a month. I cant wait to meet the one and only MIN YOONGI❤❤. He is so handsome and adorable. He literally kills me. I wish i could marry him... But sadly im not his type nor am i even pretty for him to conside me as a future anything in his life 😭😭. Gosh my stupid depression is eating me alive. It has gotten worse over the past two weeks, but ive managed to get by without doing anything stupid.. I hate my depression. Why me... We will see how this month goes... Im going to go take a nap to stop my mind for over thinking.
