Am I in it for a relationship or just the feeling? I barely even know Brian and we already like each other. I know I'm meant to be alone so why the hell am I thinking about this. Just an idiot.
A lot of things has happened these past two weeks and I'm sick of it. Brian stopped being my best friend, Amy and her bae broke up. Kiara not feeling okay and I'm feeling uncomfortable going anywhere but the library. Literally I cough every time I'm outside.
Not so long ago, I got called in to the Disipline office and so did he. We both got addressed about us and about an incident I've kept for almost 9 months.
That day we got dismissed and he said, "I think we should stop." He used to say it often as a joke. But I could see he wasn't this time. "We still gonna be best friends though." He continued. I knew it was a lie.
But I was broken but he didn't look like he was until I gave him some space and saw him crying. I wanted to help but it wasn't my business. Since now we act like complete strangers, just like how Chris and I were. This was too much to bare.
I went out 2 days ago with just to ignore everything that's happening at school. Especially Brian. It's like when I talk to him, he's not in a mood.
Today could've been our best friend day. But "why bother someone's soul if you don't mean no good to them." Well at least to take him off my mind, it's my youngest brother's birthday. Although I don't feel excited.
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Faking It... | ✓
Non-FictionElena Mai Watson was never the target of being used or bullied. She used to be herself until her kindness was taken for granted. Life in high school is never fair. There'll always be people we have to face in order to move on. There'll be obstacles...
