So I have adapted to this bad habit of being with someone for about 3 weeks and end up leaving. Is it really a problem that I keep running away from relationships.
I tried to speak with my cousin about it and she's really worried about me. I have a crush on a guy who is kinda close with Chris. But that shouldn't matter since i have this stupid curse.
My 2nd aunt and her family is torn apart. Turns out her husband was cheating on her with a 20 year old and impregnated her. That started their depression.
Now I don't get to see my cousins anymore.
As much as babies memories are stored at the age of 2. Mine did not.
Realized that my parents had an arranged marriage because of me. My dad had to break up with his old girlfriend for my mom.
And 'til this day, they regret it. Arguments and silent treatment almost every day. They won't show it in front of their kids. But I knew since the beginning.
After 20 minutes of leaving my phone, guess who buzzed?
(Today)
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Imagine 🙇🏽
Elena💜♎:
🤷🏽♀🙇🏽♀
Chris❤️🌈♈:
What's up?
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Hope you're well
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Haven't spoken in a while
Elena💜♎:
Nothing really.. Just been tired of everything n studying every day
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Same as always it seems
Chris❤️🌈♈:
How you feel?
Elena💜♎:
Still numb as usually...
Well emotionless
Chris❤️🌈♈:
How come?
Elena💜♎:
Everything is just draining me
Chris❤️🌈♈:
I can see you're not okay
Elena💜♎:
I guess 🤷🏽♀
Chris❤️🌈♈:
If you wanna open up and talk I'm here🙇🏽
You conceal yourself
Elena💜♎:
I'll try
Chris❤️🌈♈:
I'll check up later today
Elena💜♎:
Ayt
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Hey
Elena💜♎:
Sup
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Ain't you supposed to be in school?
Elena💜♎:
I'm done writing today
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Thought we could talk
Chris❤️🌈♈:
It's like I'm a stranger now
Elena💜♎:
U not... Just don't want to talk to people
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Hmm
Elena💜♎:
So wussup?
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Just making plans
Chris❤️🌈♈:
When we meeting up?
Elena💜♎:
Idk..
But i can't during holidays
Chris❤️🌈♈:
I'm ain't around during holiday so before that...
Elena💜♎:
Still writing until the last day of school
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Okay, a no would've had the same effect
Elena💜♎:
But im giving a reason
Chris❤️🌈♈:
An excuse
Elena💜♎:
🙄
Chris❤️🌈♈:
You hella confused
Elena💜♎:
How
Chris❤️🌈♈:
You don't know what you want
Elena💜♎:
🤷🏽♀Elaborate
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Reason being you feeling this way is because you're in pursue that you think you want, and that excitement you get is only at the beginning. Even if things be real there's something that you're scared of from what I've perceived and that's why you always ghost.
Chris❤️🌈♈:
So the real questions being...
Why do you make yourself miserable??
What are you scared of??
Elena💜♎:
Idk what i want
Idk why im miserable
Idk what im scared of
Chris❤️🌈♈:
And yet you still pursue a relationship
Elena💜♎:
I don't want one
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Hmmm
Elena💜♎:
What
Chris❤️🌈♈:
What's on your mind?
Elena💜♎:
Nothing
Honestly, he pisses me off. He really thinks he knows me but never asked about me. I'm tired of talking to him. I should've not even bothered myself to reply to his message.
But I fall too hard to reply because if I got something to say, don't expect me to keep quiet.
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Faking It... | ✓
Non-FictionElena Mai Watson was never the target of being used or bullied. She used to be herself until her kindness was taken for granted. Life in high school is never fair. There'll always be people we have to face in order to move on. There'll be obstacles...
