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So I have adapted to this bad habit of being with someone for about 3 weeks and end up leaving. Is it really a problem that I keep running away from relationships.

I tried to speak with my cousin about it and she's really worried about me. I have a crush on a guy who is kinda close with Chris. But that shouldn't matter since i have this stupid curse.

My 2nd aunt and her family is torn apart. Turns out her husband was cheating on her with a 20 year old and impregnated her. That started their depression.

Now I don't get to see my cousins anymore.

As much as babies memories are stored at the age of 2. Mine did not.
Realized that my parents had an arranged marriage because of me. My dad had to break up with his old girlfriend for my mom.

And 'til this day, they regret it. Arguments and silent treatment almost every day. They won't show it in front of their kids. But I knew since the beginning.

After 20 minutes of leaving my phone, guess who buzzed?

(Today)

Chris❤️🌈♈:
Imagine 🙇🏽

Elena💜♎:
🤷🏽‍♀🙇🏽‍♀

Chris❤️🌈♈:
What's up?

Chris❤️🌈♈:
Hope you're well

Chris❤️🌈♈:
Haven't spoken in a while

Elena💜♎:
Nothing really.. Just been tired of everything n studying every day

Chris❤️🌈♈:
Same as always it seems

Chris❤️🌈♈:
How you feel?

Elena💜♎:
Still numb as usually...
Well emotionless

Chris❤️🌈♈:
How come?

Elena💜♎:
Everything is just draining me

Chris❤️🌈♈:
I can see you're not okay

Elena💜♎:
I guess 🤷🏽‍♀

Chris❤️🌈♈:
If you wanna open up and talk I'm here🙇🏽
You conceal yourself

Elena💜♎:
I'll try

Chris❤️🌈♈:
I'll check up later today

Elena💜♎:
Ayt

Chris❤️🌈♈:
Hey

Elena💜♎:
Sup

Chris❤️🌈♈:
Ain't you supposed to be in school?

Elena💜♎:
I'm done writing today

Chris❤️🌈♈:
Thought we could talk

Chris❤️🌈♈:
It's like I'm a stranger now

Elena💜♎:
U not... Just don't want to talk to people

Chris❤️🌈♈:
Hmm

Elena💜♎:
So wussup?

Chris❤️🌈♈:
Just making plans

Chris❤️🌈♈:
When we meeting up?

Elena💜♎:
Idk..
But i can't during holidays

Chris❤️🌈♈:
I'm ain't around during holiday so before that...

Elena💜♎:
Still writing until the last day of school

Chris❤️🌈♈:
Okay, a no would've had the same effect

Elena💜♎:
But im giving a reason

Chris❤️🌈♈:
An excuse

Elena💜♎:
🙄

Chris❤️🌈♈:
You hella confused

Elena💜♎:
How

Chris❤️🌈♈:
You don't know what you want

Elena💜♎:
🤷🏽‍♀Elaborate

Chris❤️🌈♈:
Reason being you feeling this way is because you're in pursue that you think you want, and that excitement you get is only at the beginning. Even if things be real there's something that you're scared of from what I've perceived and that's why you always ghost.

Chris❤️🌈♈:
So the real questions being...
Why do you make yourself miserable??
What are you scared of??

Elena💜♎:
Idk what i want
Idk why im miserable
Idk what im scared of

Chris❤️🌈♈:
And yet you still pursue a relationship

Elena💜♎:
I don't want one

Chris❤️🌈♈:
Hmmm

Elena💜♎:
What

Chris❤️🌈♈:
What's on your mind?

Elena💜♎:
Nothing

Honestly, he pisses me off. He really thinks he knows me but never asked about me. I'm tired of talking to him. I should've not even bothered myself to reply to his message.

But I fall too hard to reply because if I got something to say, don't expect me to keep quiet.

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