3 more hours then it's vacation time. Been a while not talking to Brian. I walk down the hallway to my locker n a letter is inside. I figured Keith will show up. "Guurrrl, you and Brian are like The Perfect Match. You should open that, it might be from him." He winks at me before walking away.
One day we were friends
one day we were vibing
now we almost dating
and don't wanna screw that up
let's make things work
by starting over with...
Chris comes from the other side of the locker. Holding out a red rose from behind. "Hi, you must be Elena. The name's Chris." He smiles widely.
I smirked and rolled my eyes knowing that what he was doing to completely stupid. "Shall I escort you to your next class?" He asked amusingly, holding out his hand. I'm happy that he's in a good mood. At least there's something that will make the day lighter. I nodded.
We go to English class and immediately I saw De'arra. I yanked out my hand and walked away. Leaving Chris confused until he got the memo.
I sit at my chair, Chris in front of the class facing the both of us. I looked at him winking at her as I stopped staring and continued reading R+J.
"It was meant for you, ya know?" He smirked.
He really thinks that he can see through me, thinking that there's a soft spot for him. I know I'm not supposed to be on my phone right now but something has been bugging me.
Since that argument with Brian, I've tried to be okay especially around Chris but it keeps getting worse.
I didn't notice this whole time I've been tapping on the table.
I unlocked my phone, opening my contacts, Brian saved as my favorite contact. I kept locking and unlocking.
"Just call him or something." De'arra said annoyingly.
I open Whatsapp and check statuses while I think of what I should say. Wait a minute! Whose this girl he posted?
(Today)
Elena💜♎:
are we still dating or nah?
Brian💫❄️💛:
I believe not
Elena💜♎:
oh okay
Elena💜♎:
well u decided to post a vid of a chick with a caption I didn't like n u the one that said "you believe not"... so this whole time I thought we still were, just that you were busy n I gave you space. 🤷🏽♀
Brian💫❄️💛:
Which vid Elena
Brian💫❄️💛:
Some of the post I post are just how I'm feeling, dat song I posted has a deep meaning download it and listen to it
Brian💫❄️💛:
I just like the glow on her lips dats it
Keith takes my phone. Tapping on the keypads furiously. I'm glad there's someone that feels my pain. Wait what is he typing?
Elena💜♎:
omw sooo how's all of this suppose to make me feel I mean I gave this relationship everything Brian and now it has come to this really... all these posts got to me yes that's what happens when a girl deeply cares for you
"That should make him shut up." Keith hissed. I read the message he sent and half smiled. "Bestie, if nothing happens in the next 3 months. You need to move on and feel better. "
Elena💜♎:
but it's fine.. I'm sorry I was my fault
Brian💫❄️💛:
Elena dont do dis cause you know I loved you in fact still love you and care bout you ,thing is honestly, I dont deserve you, I have done a lot of things I'm not proud of and I dont want it to get to the point where you commit suicide cause of me or anything terrible cause of me, I have already lost someone that even now I blame myself for her death and i think bout it everyday bout her
Elena💜♎:
I tell you many times... I don't care about your past, I don't care that you did bad things you've done. I still love you for being you. but as much as I'm being transparent to you, I wanna help you to be better. and I honestly cried for weeks after what you said which sounded like you were giving up but I kept my head up and hoped it wasn't over.
whatever you blaming yourself for... I'm sorry. and I hope you heal. and one day you forgive yourself because God has forgiven you.
Brian💫❄️💛:
But Elena reason for me not telling you everything is because I didn't want you to stress or worry, like dat day I had an emotional breakdown all my boys were stressed worried and scared, imagine how you would have felt if the guys were worried, Anele I broke three windows dat night, believe me I'm glad I didn't tell you dat day
Elena💜♎:
not telling me anything hurts more than telling me what's wrong. I just don't wanna hear things that happened from other people but it's fine if you don't wanna tell me.
I don't even know if I'm in your life.
It's cool to keep secrets but you could at least me like okay so this happened but can't say in detail.
I understand that you know I'm going to be worried about you and all but that doesn't change anything.
It doesn't change how I think and feel about you. the real you.
Things happen. We learn from our mistakes.
You've got to learnt to accept em.
Everything that has happened to you is what made you to be better.
Nothing and no one can change that.
Elena💜♎:
I still love you no matter what happens, how hard life can be, how bad you get, how shitty the situation can be. That's real love.
I pray for you to be better. I hope you'll be okay. Just don't beat yourself up.
I guess I'm gonna have the shittiest holiday ever. Funny thing was I was actually going to ask him if we could go out. But since I'm not important to be in his life. Guess I shouldn't make him mine.
It's going to be hard but I have to try.
So Brian and I are done. For real this time?
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Faking It... | ✓
Non-FictionElena Mai Watson was never the target of being used or bullied. She used to be herself until her kindness was taken for granted. Life in high school is never fair. There'll always be people we have to face in order to move on. There'll be obstacles...
