(Today)
Chris❤️🌈♈:
What am I?
Elena💜♎:
idk
Chris❤️🌈♈:
What do you mean you don't know😱
Elena💜♎:
I really don't know... I asked you when we went to the mall n u said nothing
Chris❤️🌈♈:
What do you want us to be?
Elena💜♎:
tbh... idk
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Hmmm....well okay then
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Tell me how you feel?
Elena💜♎:
tired
Elena💜♎:
messed up
Chris❤️🌈♈:
About me...
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Anele
Elena💜♎:
remember what I said about me trying to be with someone but I freak out n etc.
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Yes
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Why is that though?
Elena💜♎:
idk... it just happened like 2 days ago
Chris❤️🌈♈:
And you didn't bother telling me
Chris❤️🌈♈:
But I hope you're okay now
Elena💜♎:
I thought it was a small temporary thing
Elena💜♎:
I am a bit
Chris❤️🌈♈:
I don't want you to do things you're not comfortable with or not ready for, I'm willing to wait for you.
Elena💜♎:
okay... let me figure myself out
Knowing that he's impatient. I definitely don't want to change my mind. After everything I've been through with him, Brian and my family.
I can't take this much negative energy. Causes me to get a headache aside from not eating as much.
So i decided to take a nap and sleep through it. Take away all my problems for just a little bit. I got dizzy and passed out.
*****
I'm no longer going to stay up until 2 a.m. My headache got even worse.
I woke up 5 hours later not knowing what's going on until I check the time. 10:33 p.m.
Nobody woke me up for dinner.
(Today)
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Hey
Elena💜♎:
hi
Chris❤️🌈♈:
You up?
Elena💜♎:
yeah
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Can we talk?
Elena💜♎:
yeah sure
Chris❤️🌈♈:
What's going on with you?
Elena💜♎:
nothing
Chris❤️🌈♈:
You're being distant
Elena💜♎:
I just don't really like talking
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Howcome
Elena💜♎:
honestly idk
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Remember the last time we talked...I've been waiting for your reply
Elena💜♎:
what reply?
Chris❤️🌈♈:
What you feel about me and where you see this going...
Elena💜♎:
im still hung up on a lot of things so I can't move forward to this relationship
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Hung up on???
Elena💜♎:
everything
Brian!!! I need him right now, not you.
Chris❤️🌈♈:
You know you can talk to me...
Elena💜♎:
rn... I can't express anything
Chris❤️🌈♈:
What can you express
Elena💜♎:
sadness
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Why?
Elena💜♎:
I wish I was little
Chris❤️🌈♈:
We all do, back when we were happy
Elena💜♎:
yeah
Elena💜♎:
well.. gtg sleep... Goodnight✨💤
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Sleep well🦋🌺
Elena💜♎:
you too💚
Chris❤️🌈♈:
Love you🙇🏽
Elena💜♎:
ily✨
Chris❤️🌈♈:
❤
If I'm going to keep lying to him and myself then I don't really deserve to be with someone I want. I don't even know what I want.
Wait a minute... Do I even really want Brian?
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Faking It... | ✓
Non-FictionElena Mai Watson was never the target of being used or bullied. She used to be herself until her kindness was taken for granted. Life in high school is never fair. There'll always be people we have to face in order to move on. There'll be obstacles...
