Dark Paradise

Chapter 11

~ I let you in,
I fucking let you in,
And you completely destroyed me
Me and Zayn decided to go out to 'our' special little cafe on the other side of town. I told Harry he could go out, but he said he'd probably chill out with my dogs instead.
"Hey stop that!" I screeched as Zayn kept poking my sides. We had probably ordered every sweet thing we could get our hands on. The sugar rush was kicking in.
"Okay, okay I'll stop. How are your designs coming?" Zayn asked as he sipped his coffee.
"Very well I've finished making 4 of the eight. So yea I'm doing good." I replied. "What about you're art show last night. Were you happy with the outcome?" I questioned back.
"Great, I'm really happy and I got some great offers, I was offered to go spend some time in Italy." He said.
"Sounds great, for how long?"
"For three months, practically the whole summer." He said quietly. The whole summer. Me and Zayn have never been apart for that long. Actually this whole month has been the longest we've been apart.
"Ummm you should go." I encouraged him, I didn't want to be selfish, this would be great for him, and as he's best friend I want the best for him.
"You think I should go?" He questioned on." But we'll be apart for three months." He said, why was he opposing the chance of going to Italy.
"Yea I know but it would be great for you and your work, I could always come to visit or you could come. But this is a great offer, don't deny because of me." I said placing my hand over his.
"Okay, I'll miss you so much though. But I'll call every day. And when you come back from London we will spend all our time together until I have to go." Zayn said smiling a bit.
"Yea we will." I said.
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Me and Zayn spent hours in that little cafe talking about nothing, and it reminded me why we were best friends.
I bought Harry some sweets from the cafe like some cookies and muffins. I wanted to surprise him so I came in to the house quietly. I could hear him on the phone in the kitchen. Me being really nosy I listened.
"Yea Louis I know." Harry said, so he was talking to a guy named Louis.
"I feel bad for doing it to her, but my dad has begin to accept me because of her." Harry said, her who was her?Was it me?
"Because he absolutely adores her, and he finally thinks I'm doing something right with my life. I know she's might be falling a bit for me but just think about it, my father will finally treat me like a son and it'll all be thanks to her." He was using somebody, but who? A little voice in my head screamed that it was me. I didn't want to listen anymore but I had to know if it was me.
"I mean I'm not sure how I feel about her, right now I'm just focusing on her falling for me, she's hot and all. She's definitely a feisty one, she's Spanish so yea. I'm in Paris with her at the moment." As soon as the words left his words all these emotions hit me like a truck. It was that moment where you can actually feel the pain in your chest from seeing or hearing something that breaks your heart.
He was using me this whole time, just to get on his dad's good side. I feel so damn stupid, I just don't get it, he was so sweet and everything he did seemed honest and genuine. How was I so damn blind.
"Okay bye Lou I'll see you when I get back to Cheshire." Harry said breaking me out of my thoughts. I slowly walked back and in to my room, quietly, I didn't know how to respond to what I just heard, I made sure to lock the door, in case Harry wanted to sleep in here. I didn't want to see his face or even hear his voice in this moment, nothing he could say at the moment would make me act sane, cos of anything I wanted to lash out on him.
"Bel! Bel! Bel!" Harry called out, but I didn't respond, I was scared my voice would break, or maybe my mouth would start yelling out a storm.
"I see your car bel, where are you?" Harry called out again, his voice was getting closer and closer. Quickly I grabbed my keys and dog leashes. Tiny and Biggie were out side in my yard. Lucky for me my window was right by the yard. I opened it up and jumped out, my house was a one story home, I whistled for them and in seconds they were at my feet. I leashed them and we began walking. It was night and I knew that, but I just couldn't stand being in the same house as Harry. I couldn't stand that he was in my home. That I trusted him. Instead of taking the trail me and Harry took I took the trail that connected to the road. Me and my dogs walked along the side of the road. I knew it was a bit dangerous, but I couldn't risk Harry finding me. He'd notice my car was back but me and my dogs were missing.
Every now and then a cars headlights would shine, there wasn't much traffic tonight.
I didn't realize until now that I was actually crying. I couldn't risk letting go of the leashes of my dogs so I kept on walking. To where? I don't know have a clue I just kept walking.
*beep beep*
A car honked at me, I looked up but couldn't really see the car or the person since the headlight were shining really bright. I knew the car had stopped, I heard the drivers seat open and close. I knew I should have run, this person might try to kidnap me. But I had a large Great Dane with me so maybe they wouldn't try anything.
"Hey are you okay?" A mans voice asked, through the shining light I could see the shape of a man emerge. As he got closer I could make out his features. He had chocolate brown eyes, his head seemed like he had shaved his hair but it was growing back. He had a bit of a beard too, like an aftershave but it looked good on him.
I snapped out of my daze and realized I was staring.
"Oh yea I'm fine." I sniffled out, I clutched tighter to my dogs leashes.
"Are you sure, it's cold and night and you're walking around by the side of the road crying?" He asked and stepped closer to me.
"No it's okay I'm fine, I was just walking. I'm fine I was just heading home." I answered him.
"I'll take you home. I'm Liam by the way." He said.
"No seriously I can handle myself. I'm fine Liam thanks for your concern." I said.
"Wait! At least fine me your number so I can call you later and make sure you got home safely." He said, I complied and gave him my number. He looked at me one last time before he drove away. As soon as I made sure he had drove far away, I turned around and began walking back to my house. I got lucky this time that Liam was a good guy and not some creep.
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Instead of going through the front door I hopped in through my window that I left open. I helped my dogs jump in and then I jumped in. I closed the window since my room now felt really cold.
I let myself fall on my bed, not knowing what to do.
I could hear steps from down the hall. They stopped in front of my door.
"Bel? Are you in there?" Harry asked through the other side of the door. I didn't answer though.
"Hey you've been gone for hours. C'mon talk to me. Are you mad about last night?" He questioned. Now that the feel of heart break was passing through the anger was setting in. And it was coming in hard. My fist clenched as I shot up from my bed. I didn't dare to open the door though.
"Please just shut the hell up! God why don't you just go back to your father okay I'm pretty sure he accepted you by now! Just leave the hell alone!" I screamed, it was quiet after that, but I was just starting.
"What now you're quiet Harry? Do you have anything to say now?" I yelled.
"I'm sorry I- I I didn't mean for it to come to this. I didn't know this would happen." He whispered but I heard him loud and clear, and I couldn't help but laugh.
"Didn't know! Oh god Harry! You knew damn well what you were doing. You knew damn well who you were breaking." I screamed, my throat was hurting by now but it didn't stop me.
"By morning I don't want to see you. You have your airplane ticket, I want you out this house." I said, everything was quiet. I heard his steps fade away in the distance. I couldn't help but let out one last scream, my dogs looked up at me. I fell to my knees and cried, I haven't done this in a while. I didn't cry not even when I left California. My dogs were at my side, I buried my head in to my Great Danes back and just laid there crying.
I fell asleep crying on the floor by my dogs.
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The flight back to London was okay, I have no clue if Harry followed my orders and actually came back. He was gone by the time I woke up and I didn't care what if he did get home or not. I traded my tickets for a later flight.
Rosie was there to pick me, she had a bright smile, but I couldn't even force fake smile for her. I ran up to her and hugged her tightly and began to cry on her shoulder.
"Remember you said you'd break my walls down?" I asked through my tears.
"Yes." She answered.
"Well they got crashed down. It's your turn to listen to my boy problems and give me some advice." I said. She hugged me tighter and lead me to her car.
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We were sitting down on the couch, she had all my favorites laid across the coffee table. Ice cream chips various types of tequila and vodka. Weird combo but sometimes getting drunk numbed the pain.
"Now let it all out." Rosie breathed out as we had been sitting down in silence for a few minutes for a while.
"It just hurts that's all." I breathed out.
"Okay okay, and that's fine. It's perfectly okay not to be okay." Rosie soothed out as she rubbed my back.
"Do you wanna tell me what happened?" She asked.
"He used me so his dad would finally accept him." I replied. "God and I was so stupid not to see through all his lies and fake smiles and compliments. God I hate him so much, yet I don't at the same time. And I hate that. I just agh I don't even know." I said beginning to talk faster and faster.
"Why did he have to do that to me? Out of all people and it was me. I should have seen the red signs. God he's such a bastard I-I-I just agh tengo ganas de tener una pistola y pum pum por pendejo." I said beginning to blabber on in Spanish. I tend to do that when I get mad.
"Okay I have no idea what you just said but it sounded bad." She joked. I smiled a bit.
We talked for hours mostly me just going on and on about everything I needed to get off my chest.
"I can see why you're anti-social." Rosie breathed out, as I finished another story of mine. I had told her everything, from my old life until now.
"I'm not anti-social I'm anti-idiot. I talk to people like you and my friend Zayn and Quinn. And that boy Liam I told you I met on the side of the road. We've been texting a bit." I answered.
"That's only like 4 people." She argued.
"That's all I need." I answered and laid my head back on her lap. I felt like a child but at this moment I didn't care. I just didn't care. And that's what scares me the most.