Dark Paradise

Chapter 31

~"Tomorrow will be better" He said.
"But what if it's not." I questioned.
"Then you say it again tomorrow. Because it might be. You never know alright. At some point tomorrow will be better."
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It's been almost a month since my grandfathers death. Me and harry have gone back to Paris. I should be better by now. But I still feel lost and empty. I hate it. I feel like I'm a burden to Harry. I'm surprised he's still here.
"Belinda baby please eat something." Harry said nudging the plate of pasta towards me. Slowly I ate as much as I could. Not that it was enough. Harry huffed before getting up and taking both of our plates to the kitchen. I also got up walking back to my room to sulk like I've been doing every night alone.
This time harry followed me, unlike other nights when he knew I liked to be alone.
"No Belinda! I'm sick and tired of watching you sad and lifeless every single day. I know it's hard for you, but it also pains me to see you like this. God damn it!" Harry yelled pulling on his hair. I've never seen harry this mad before. I stared at him analyzing him.
"What?" He questioned after a few minutes of silence and me staring at him.
"Why are you still here?" I questioned.
"What?" He said not understanding.
"Why haven't you left after all of this. I'm sure I've been nothing but a burden to you and yet you stay. Why?" I questioned.
"Because I love you." He answered with out thinking about the answer.
"Why do you love me?" I questioned further.
He thought about it for a second, biting his lip. His green eyes then finally met mine.
"Because Bel, not being able to touch you would be hell. I'd rather kiss you then pretend that I don't want you. I can't stop fidgeting and tapping my fingers when I'm not around you. I feel like scratching my skin when you're not around. You're a drug that I have become addicted to, and it would hurt like hell not to claim you as mine. The only thing that satisfies the craving is your smile, your laugh, your touch, just you. God it would be so hard not to be with you." He said stepping closer to me taking in a deep breath before continuing on.
"You're different I let my walls come down for you. I fell in love with you're beautiful broken soul. Theres so much more I could say. But I can't and probably will never find the perfect words to describe why I love you, but damn it I'll try every day to show and prove to you why I stay, why I love you. I just need you to let me, come back to me Bel. I need you back, if you don't do it for yourself. Do it for me. Because it will get better trust me on that." Harry breathes out, he reached out and grabbed my face in his large hands and smashed his lips against mine roughly. Desperately trying to show me the love and passion he felt about me. Hesitantly I raised my hands and grabbed on to his neck. His hands traveled a little below my waist line tightly holding on.
Once we needed air he pulled away kissing my forehead gently. We stood there, embracing each other.
"I love you so much Harry." I faintly whispered, but I knew he heard me because he tightened his hold on me and kissed the top of my head.
And once again Harry Styles showed me that it would be okay. That like always he was that little spark in my dark paradise. Life was going to be okay. Because I had Harry. And that's all I need.
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"Thank you." Harry said as he held my hand gently as we walked to the park by my house. It was the first time going out in a month, and it felt good to be out in the fresh air again.
"No Harry, thank you." I said squeezing his hand. He smiled down at me and pulled me along. Harry held Biggies leash while I held Tiny's leash. We walked in silence, occasionally sneaking glances at each other. Both of us blushing and smiling when one of us got caught by the other.
Once at the park we let loose the dogs, I trusted them enough to play on their own and come back when needed. Me and harry took a seat under a tree near by where I could still see my dogs.
"It's beautiful today." Harry commented as he looked up at the sunny sky.
"Yea it is." I said agreeing with him. I laid my head on his lap staring up at the sky. Him playing with my hair, stroking it gently. My mind getting lost in the clouds. I closed my eyes getting lost in the sounds around me. The gently breeze of the summer wind. The sounds of the kids playing near by, the dogs in the park, including my own. My ears picked up on Harry's breathing, slow and calm, like the way he would talk.
I couldn't help but genuinely smile when I felt his eyes on me. I could always feel when his eyes were on me, because his stare would be intense and passionate.
"I know you're looking at me." I said opening one eye to see him smirking and looking down on me.
"I can't help it when the most beautiful girl is right here lying on my lap." Harry said gently caressing my face. The simple gesture and his compliment both causing me to blush, like always. Harry made up for those teenage school girl crush moments I lost during my teen years. Since I was in a fake relationship during my years of high school. Harry bought me those butterflies and those tingles.
"Nice one Styles." I mumbled closing my eye again. Harry kept on stroking my hair and touching certain parts of my face. I sighed in content, I could finally see things going back to the way they were slowly, I could feel it.
"Hey open those big brown eyes for me Belli." Harry said. Slowly I opened my brown eyes to see his green eyes staring down on me again.
"Yes Harry?" I questioned, propping my right eyebrow up.
"Why do you love me?" Harry asked, I propped myself up again so I could directly look in those green eyes I fell in love with.
"Love is just love Harry, it cannot be defined and it cannot be explained. But I'll try to explain why I fell so deeply in love with you." I said causing him to smile.
"Love isn't about how many times you say I Love You but how many times you prove it. Trust me Harry you've proven you're love to me many times. I know what we have is real. I am in love with your smile. I am in love with your voice. I am in love with your body. I am in love with your laugh. I am in love with your eyes. I'm in love with you. The day I met you my life changed... The way you make me feel is hard to explain. You make me smile in a special kind of way. You make me fall deeply in love everyday." I finished off. "Now please, kiss the hell out of me." I said, Harry smiled.
"With pleasure Love."