"Home, I've heard the word before, but it's never been much more than just a thing I've never had. A place, they say hey, know your place, but I've never had a place to even know, or a place that I could go to if I needed someone there."
I thought I know that it was
Call a place my heart and home
When you held me I was invincible
I wouldn't ever be alone.But here we are, lost, afraid
I wish I could go back and sayAnything to make it change
I don't want it to be this way.It's too late now, there's no changing this
This horrible feeling that sits on my chest
I wish you knew the pain a feel
But I wish you no harm and all the bestI can't pretend it doesn't hurt
I can't pretend that I'm okay
But every time you walk through that door
I'm way too lost on what to say.The most pain I felt, the horrible feelings I lasted
You were there through all of that
But here we are, just four months later
Not knowing where we stand atI don't want to be a stranger
I want to be your friend
But how you are with eitherI can't be how it ends
I can't hold you anymore
And not because I don't want to
It's because I see differently now
But know I'll always love youI guess this is my own fault
I'll accept this blame
I'll sit inside my bed alone
And remember all the painI can't remember much else
It will hurt too muchI have to remember your harsh words
Instead of gentle touchI've given up on me
But never will I on you
You deserve the best of lives
Considering what you've been throughIf you find that best of lives
In beds of other women
I can't be mad, I told you soAway is where you're driven
I'll be me, and you be you
That's what's only fairI'll bit my tongue, between clenched teeth
To pretend that I don't careNo one will ever replace
All we've done together
It's taken some real maturity
To realize that maybe this is betterI've two-stepped, bounced, and played around
To avoid this time
But I have to stop remembering
The happiness when you were mine.I've heard the word before, but it's never been much more than just a thing, I've never had.
You were my home, my heart, my love,
At least, I believed as truth
Everything's different, I'll never see
I'm homeless now, are you?
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Forget to Remember
PoetryThis is literally just everything... this is my poetry written mostly when I'm depressed, but it's actually pretty good, so you should give it a read or something. Original Poetry by Finality_Fatality.