𝒞𝓇𝓊𝓈𝑒 •XXXTENTACION•

3.6 INDECISION

-xxxtentacion

I know this passed but a moment of silence for the California fire that destroyed many businesses and homes.

Scarlet.

"Jessie gonna be home soon you gotta go,,"

"I ain't going nowhere fuck you meann" Jahseh has stayed with me all night and he's been drinking all my alcohol, being a fat bitch and shit

"For real though, I don't Jessie thinking this is the beginning of us off on a good start of being in a relationship" I said to him

"Hol up, you don't want to be with me??" I felt his arms wrap around me. "Well.. not saying I don't wish to be with you but baby we gotta establish that trust issue first" he nodded in agreement

"You're right... so who's the nigga you had over?" I rolled my eyes in annoyance, yo if he keeps asking me this fuck ass question I'm going to kill myself

"Brooo, can we not please?"

"ONE PERSON ONCE SAID; we have to establish trust first SO MY NIGGA WASSUP?" He yelled all through my apartment.

"Aight den. Who was That bitch Jade you have over?"

"Fair point." Was all he said before he kissed me and held me tight against him "I've missed you and I love you a lot" I smiled as he kissed my neck gently "I love you too."

Jessie

"We need to talk." I nodded at sonny as he sat down next to me, I had to leave in a few minutes to be home, I got school tomorrow and my baby finally gets to go back to school.

I've missed sonny at school

"Kayla has... contacted me, she told me something that would probably change our entire relationship" he sounded nervous,

"She's pregnant and what I've heard.. I'm the father" ...

....

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"I know you fucking lying." He can't be serious. Did he cheat on me, goddamnit I swear to fuck these boys in flordia be a let down.

"S-she told me she has been for awhile, she already has a baby bump. I won't take care of it if you want me too, i swear—"

"No sonny, I want you to take care of your baby I just.." I felt like, my brain has gone entirely disabled. Everything was happening so fast.

Did someone say suicide?

... y'all hear sum?

"Okay. I wish, you and your baby well" I tried not crying but I couldn't help it. I grabbed stuff "Jessie wait."

"This was a mistake." Was all I said to him before I left, i don't fight, I don't argue I let that nigga know real quick though.

I went to my dads house and I was already debating on skipping school.. I might have to skip anyways, my dad wants me at the studio tomorrow.

"Dad!" I called out closing the door back. He's not here ig.

I get on my phone and I refresh my Instagram feed, people kept tagging me and it was a post of Kayla and her little baby bump.. sonny is in the picture with her

The caption read 'baby father🥺💕' my heart dropped. These niggas be a let down.. I just need to get over it

I just need to work on myself

Scarlet

Jahseh was taking a shower and maybe.. it's time, I need to tell him.

After I heard the shower stop I called for him "Jah!"

"Yeah?" I sighed "can you come here when you get done!" Instead of following my rules he came out with a towel around his West and his dreads dripping wet, tracking a puddle of water from the bathroom

"Wassup mamas" he smiled. I tried to be serious at least "take a seat baby."

He sat next to me and my hands were shaking I tried not to be so nervous, "you okay?" He said holding my hands

"I dont know if you know but, ski and Niomi has been wanting a kid.. and they found out Niomi isn't- capable of having kids.." he just nodded

"They ask me to carry their baby.. I said yes." He was still keeping eye contact with me but had no emotion

"Please I have an appointment next month on the 30th.." he was just silent..

"Please say something.."

"If this is what you want to do, then I will support you. But I am not missing out on taking care of this one.." I hugged him tightly, I missed having his support

".. you know you have to take care of Geneva with me right?"

"My nigga what— I ain't sign up for this."

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