Dangerous Love

Chapter 34

I cant believe we are at chapter 34 already... I started this book almost a year ago, look at how far we have come :) thanks everyone, i seriously love you all😘❤

Bella's POV

"Doc, there's gotta be something you can do. She's 19... you can't let her just go like that! She has a life and a future! And she risked her life to save me!!" I screamed, my throat growing tired of using my voice.

"I don't know... She very well could be in a-"

"Don't say coma. Ryan was already in a coma for almost a whole year. I am DONE with comas." I wiped my forehead, sweat dripping down it. "Please doctor... do something..."

"There's not much I can do. She just got here - can you please give us some time to see what is going on?" He asked.

Arms wrapped around my waist as a familiar, glorious scent entered my nostrils. "Of course, doc. Take all the time you need."

Ryan kissed me on the forehead. He sat down on the chair and offered for me to sit on his lap. So I did, and I leaned on his shoulder.

"Nicole will be okay, Bella. Stop worrying," he reassured me, rubbing my back in circular motions.

"I know." My breath got caught in my throat. "But I just can't help but think..."

"Well stop thinking it," Ryan said.
Then, we took a nap.

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While I was asleep, I was having memories about all the fun times Nicole and I used to have as kids.

When we would go ding-dong-ditching to the old people in town, and when we would go hide in the ditch to eat all of Nicole's mom's secret stash of candy.

Times with her with the best. She helped me out more than she should have. I didn't deserve everything she had given me.

I woke up to see Ryan already up. He was staring at the ground, his eye bags puffing out very clearly.

"Ryan? How long was I asleep?" I asked, yawning.

"For about three hours. The doctors are still working on Nicole. They haven't found anything yet."

"Well that's good," I said, noticing the four empty cups on the side table next to Ryan. I guess a doctor was making sure he was hydrated.

"I don't know. If they don't find anything then she might not be alive. As long as they find something...." Ryan inhaled and exhaled slowly.

I rubbed his back to calm him down. He didn't deserve to feel so worried and panicked. I kissed him on the cheek.

"I really hope she is okay... her mom will think that it was all my fault. She never liked me anyways - she never wanted me and Nicole to hang out because she knew the mafia shit that my family was sucked into. It's all my fault, Bella... fuck, why did I let this happen?" He wiped a tear that started to pour down his face.

"It isn't your fault. Don't ever say that. Nicole wouldn't want you to say that, would she?"

Realization hit me like a rock---what would life be like without Nicole? After all the shit she had helped me through, she was like God to me. I didn't really think I could live without her.

"Bella, I just want you to know that I love you. I feel like you don't hear it enough. I didn't get to say it to Nicole, but I'll make sure you get to hear it." I smiled. He really did have a soft spot. Deep down there somewhere.

"Stop talking like Nicole is dead. She isn't dead. She's very much alive. I believe that she is." I grabbed his hand and squeezed it tight - my hope far from ending.

Mary Alice, though all of this, was in the nursery, having a nap. The doctors said she would be fine after a little bit of rest and she hadn't been injured at all. I was very much thankful for that.

"I love you too, Ryan," I added, leaning my head on his shoulder once again.

I was scared by the footsteps that came walking lour way. I jumped, but when I looked over it was just a nurse with another cup of water. She handed it to Ryan.

"Ma'am?" I asked. "Do they have any information yet on Nicole?" My heart was beating a mile a minute.

"I'm not sure. Would you like for me to go get the doctor?"

"Please," I said, smiling at her. I was squeezing on Ryan's hand so tight I began to wonder how he wasn't screaming and bleeding in pain.

"Oh, Ryan.... I'm scared." He tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear before he replied, "You shouldn't be. She's alive, remember?"

She's alive, I reassured myself.

The doctor then walked in the room with his clipboard in his right hand. A piece of his gray hair had fallen onto his forehead and he looked stressed out.

"So, doc..." Ryan started, "I'm assuming you've come here to tell us that Nicole is alright, and we can take her home as soon as we want?" Ryan placed his hand on my knee.

Of course, that's the answer we were wanting. It was the moment to find out if that was what we got.

"Well, Mr. Miller..." the doctor began, "I'm afraid that I have to tell you that Nicole Lee Miller has to end here. I'm sorry for your loss - but we did everything we tried."

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my bed is wet from all the tears i cried writing and reading this. i cant believe nicole is gone. honestly, she was probably my favorite character.

anywho - i hope everyone's summer is going well. i also cant believe its almost the 4th of July! i have a really cute outfit picked for that day.

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