Unreachable Zacharius

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Chapter 22

We were both sweaty after reaching our climax. Nakadagan siya sa akin, hinihingal at pawisan. I could feel the thin dust of hair on his chest against my skin slightly tickling me. Humugot ako ng marahang hininga habang hinahaplos ang likod ng kaniyang leeg. I don't want this to end.

He burried his face on my collarbones. I figured he has a fetish on collarbones. His lips touched a part of my neck making me bite my lower lip. The logical part of was slowly crippling. Parang ayoko na siyang iwan. Parang ayoko ng matapos ito.

Natigil ako sa marahang paghaplos nang iangat niya ang sarili. Ramdam ko ang matinding pangungulila nang hugutin niya ang sarili sa akin. He rolled to my side and covered his eyes with his firm bicep.

Suminghot ako nang maamoy ang matamis na amoy ng lavender galing sa medyo basa kong buhok. I reached for the comforter and covered our naked bodies underneath it. Tumagilid ako paharap sa kaniya. I rose a bit and peered on his face.

His eyebrows were creased. He had his eyes tightly closed like he's in pain. Lips pressed in a thin line like something was bugging him. Ngumuso ako at tahimik na bumalik sa dating ayos. Bahagya kong nasilip sa kaonting siwang na bukas ng kurtina ang medyo malakas na ulan sa labas.

I returned my gaze on him. I could only see his sharp jaw and firm lips from this angle. I want to see his whole expression but his bicep were blocking his face from my sight.

Unconsciously, I lifted my hand and reached for his jaw. Punong-puno ng panlalambot at pagsuko ang mga mata ko habang hinahaplos ang umiigting niyang panga. I caressed it slowly until his muscles slowly relaxed. Unti-unti ring bumaba ang kanyang braso galing sa pagkakatakip sa mukha.

"What is it that upsets you?" halos pabulong kong tanong.

I felt how his body tensed. Bumungtung-hininga ako at umusog lalo palapit sa kaniya.

I don't need to ask if he's mad. Sa paraan ng pag-igting ng kaniyang panga. Sa paraan ng pagtaas at baba ng kaniyang dibdib. Sa mariing pagkakalapat ng kaniyang mga labi. Hindi ko na kailangang magtanong. I know there's something that's bothering him. I just need to know... why... and what is it that bothers him.

"Stop asking," he warned.

I felt a slight pinch in my chest but I continued, anyway. Pinaglaro ko ang mga kamay sa tinik ng kaniyang tumutubong balbas.

"Why are you always so upset around me?" I whispered calmly.

His hooded eyes met mine. Nanliliit ako sa titig niyang ganito.  His eyes were always intense and serious. Parang nangmamaliit at nambibintang. Pakiramdam ko'y alam niya ang mga iniisip ko at handa niya akong husgahan sa mga ito.

"Don't get me started with your bullshits, Amber Ylena." matigas ang boses niyang sinabi.

"Sorry..." I croaked.

Parang napapaso kong binitawan ang kaniyang panga at umusog palayo. You know what is it that upsets him, Amber? Your being dramatic.

He closed his eyes and breathed heavily. Pinagkasya ko ang sarili ko sa pagtitig sa kaniya. You definitely wouldn't get it, Zach. You have no idea how I feel so fucked without you. You have no idea how dramatic this is for me. You probably would never get it coz this seemed to be so easy for you.

Sa akin, hindi. Mahirap ito para sa akin. Sobrang hirap na pakiramdam ko, ikamamatay ko.

But I want to prove to you that I am far from that stubborn lady that I was when you first met me. I will embrace all your decisions. Your decision would matter to me the most. You won't be forced anymore. Just make me savor our last hours together. Iyon lang.