Unreachable Zacharius

35

Chapter 35

I blinked all the memories away. Ilang beses akong kumurap upang tuluyang mawala ang hindi magandang ala-ala sa isipan. I closed my eyes firmly. Ramdam ko ang kahihiyan sa lahat ng iyon. My cheeks heated badly and I can't help but to avoid Zach's eyes.

He was staring at me like he was judging me. I could still feel his hot hand caressing my tummy. I bit down on my lower lip, thinking about his deep confession. It feels surreal. Totoo ba ang lahat ng iyon?

"You loathe me, you hate me so much. You can't be crazy of me. You hate me, right? You— you filed an annulment and wanted me out of your life. It was obvious you didn't want anymore to do with me. I don't get you at all, Zach..." I said, the sounds just stumble out over one another.

I looked everywhere but him. Pakiramdam ko kapag tinignan ko siya, mahihimatay ako sa matinding kahihiyan. I don't even know why i'm suddenly embarrassed when I should be angry and yelling at him right now. But then I realized, I made all those embarrassing mistakes myself and he was just a victim of my rebellious teenager self in the past.

I lowered my head, my eyes grazing the cold tiles. I know I was a handful. I know I was annoying. I know I was too childish for his liking, pero ipinagsiksikan ko pa rin ang sarili ko sa kanya. I refuse to bring back all the other more embarrassing memories. It's too much to handle.

"I don't hate you," he whispered tenderly. "I'll prove it to you, baby. I miss you so much. Let's get back together..."

Gulat sa kaniyang sinabi, napaatras ako at inangat ang tingin sa kanya. Natanggal ang kamay niya sa aking tiyan pero mabilis niya akong nahila pabalik at niyakap. He nuzzled his face on my neck. Mahigpit ang yakap niya, parang ayaw akong pakawalan.

"Please..." he whispered huskily.

My lips parted. Kumurap-kurap ako at naramdaman ang mas matinding pag-iinit ng pisngi. He planted soft kisses on my neck while hugging me tightly. Natuod ako mula sa kinatatayuan. I couldn't seem to lift my hands and push him away. Nanatili ang mga iyon sa gilid ko, walang ginagawa upang makawala sa kanyang yakap.

"God, I miss your scent..." he whispered after resting his nose on my collarbone.

"You are being crazy right now, Zacharius," I whispered.

Umiling siya, bahagyang sinisinghot ang collarbone ko. Ang kanyang noo ay nakasandal sa aking balikat, his hair slightly tickling the side of my neck. I bit down on my lower lip. I want to caress his nape so bad. Gusto ko siyang lambingin katulad ng lagi kong ginagawa noon pero pinigilan ko ang sarili ko. I need to be hard for once.

"You need to explain everything you just said, okay? I still don't believe you. Paanong mahal mo ako kung halos isumpa mo pati ang presensya ko noon?" I said calmly.

"That's too deep Tagalog. Can't understand it, baby..." he whispered with a soft languid caress of his lips against my skin.

Oh my freaking goodness.

"Seriously..." I rolled my eyes. "I said it's just so hard to believe that you are in love with me because the last time, Zach, you hate even just my mere presence. My God! Can you stop that? We're talking!" pagalit ko nang sinabi at tinulak ang kanyang balikat.

"Hmm..." he hummed, unaffected with my soft push.

I blew out a breath of air through my lips. I closed my eyes when his lips gently moved from the hollow of my collarbones to my shoulder blades. I slightly flinched at the feel of his stubble.