My Mafia Man // book 2

"Love"

We finally reached our home . I was skinny and exhausted.

The back of my ribcage was very sensitive for some reason .

"Babe , can you check my back" I asked Ashton . "Yeah sure" he nodded as he led me into the bathroom. He lifted up the back of my shirt . He hissed at the sight . "Awh" I whined knowing it was bad . "He wasn't very gentle with you" Ashton mumbled annoyed as his fingers traced the bruise on my back .

Ashton dropped my shirt . I needed a hug . "Ashton" I whimpered . He stopped walking and turned around . He held out his arms . This man knows me too well . I slowly walked over into his arms.

"I love you" Ashton said as he kissed my forehead . "I love you" I replied back as clung onto him like my life depended on it . I never want to loose him , not ever .

"It's been a long day baby , how about we watch a movie on the couch and make some more food ?" Ashton whispered into my ear . I nodded softly . Ashton swept me into his arms and carried me to the couch .

He placed me on the couch as he walked into the kitchen . I flicked through the movies before stopping on the hunger games .

Suddenly , Antonia , Ashley , Adam and Jax all walked in . They all sat on the couches around me . "Thank you Adam" I nodded appreciatively at Adam . "Don't thank me , if I was two seconds later Ashton would've been dead" Adam shook his head . "But he's not" I spoke reassuringly.

I looked at my hands . I'm going to have two nasty scars across my hands . I never showed Ashton the gashes . I got up and walked into Ashton . He had something cooking in the pan . It smelt amazing .

"Ash" I mumbled . He looked up at me with his eyebrows raised and a towel over his shoulder. Saying he looked hot was an understatement. "Could you fix these" I hissed as I opened my hands for him .

"Awh babygirl, why didn't you show me this earlier?" Ashton uttered worriedly . "I don't know" I shrugged . He ran his thumbs along the cut on my hands . "It's from grabbing that blade" Ashton sighed as he shook his head .

Ashton placed me on the counter beside the sink. He grabbed a warm wet cloth and a first aid kit.  He gently dabbed the cloth against my gashes . "Hopefully you didn't damage any nerves , even if you did , you probably wouldn't be able to tell since your pain tolerance is highest it get" Ashton explained .

I started to tear up . "Hey hey , am I hurting you?" Ashton asked me softly . I shook my head no as I sniffled . "What's wrong El?" Ashton asked worriedly as he gently held my face in his hands . He stroked my cheek with his thumb. "I don't like that I can't feel pain , he made me into a monster" I weeped .

My mental health wasn't it's best . It's never at its best but after the past few days of preparing myself to kill Ashton , I think I had to let everything out.

"No , you are not a monster , you are beautiful and if you're not beautiful to yourself , you're beautiful to me, and brave , and caring , and kind . So I don't want to hear you say you're not beautiful because that's all I see" Ashton begged me to believe him . I knew he was speaking the absolute truth . It was what he saw in me .

I nodded . Ashton pulled me into his arms . This time , he was one clinging onto me . I knew that he was just as afraid as I was today . Not of dying but of what him dying would do to me . He would never want to hurt me .

I just cried into Ashton arms . After awhile I pulled away from Ashton . "You okay?" He stroked my hair behind my ear . He wiped away my tears with his hand.

He walked over to the food and stirred it before bandaging up my hands . "Thanks" I muttered as I smiled softly . "You're so cute" he smiled at me .

I seen Graysons head peaking around the corner . I seen him smiling before leaving .

I got so lucky with him .

"I feel guilty having two dinners" I smiled guiltily as I swung my legs from being ontop of the counter . "We didn't eat for two weeks , I think we're allowed to have two dinners" Ashton replied with a smirk .

"I'm such a good cook wow" Ashton drooled while setting up our dinners . "Wait" I remembered something. Ashton stared at me . "Come here" I demanded . "Okay miss bossy pants" Ashton joked .

I lifted up his shirt . "If you wanted me , you should've just told me" Ashton smirked as he whispered in my ear . I blushed hard as tingles ran down my spine . "N-no" I stuttered flustered . Ashton chuckled at me being flustered .

I seen the cut on his chest . It had stopped bleeding but it was still wide open . "Babe , that needs stitches" I raised my eyebrows at him as I made him take off his shirt . He pouted playfully as he jumped onto the counter.

"Please , I know you don't like stitches but this is too close to your heart to ignore" I begged him as I took out a needle . He looked at my lips . "Only if I get a makeout" he smirked . "Fine but later" I compromised. "Now" he challenged me .

I rolled my eyes in defeat . I slowly kissed him . He licked my bottom lip asking for entrance and I gave it to him . We fought for dominance and he won obviously. He pulled me close to him by my waist , resting his hands on my hips but slowly moving them down towards my ass .

I wrapped my arms around his neck deepening the kiss .

Then all the group walked in . Ashton shirtless on the counter with his hands on my ass and us making out . I hid in Ashton's chest making sure not to damage his cut some more .

"Oh shit" Jax uttered as he stared at us . "Food" Antonia shrieked happily . "No" Ashton growled loudly frightening everyone. "Mine" Ashton stated dominantly . "Okayyy then , hurry up , we want to watch the hunger games" Adam whined .

"Yeah , we'll be in , in a sec" Ashton rolled his eyes . They all walked back into the sitting room . Ashton laughed at my rose colored cheeks . "You get so embarrassed so easily" he chuckled lightly .

"Shhh" I hushed him as I grabbed the needle . "You ready" I asked him . He nodded .

I had finally finished stitching him up . He had his eyes shut . "It's over now you know" I giggled softly . "That hurt" he muttered . He went to put his shirt back on . "No" I hissed . He looked at me curiously. "Leave your shirt off , I like you shirtless" I smiled as I ran my hand along his abs .

"I like you shirtless too , you want to strip for me ?" Ashton whispered playfully . "No" I glared at him . "No fair" he pouted . "Don't challenge me" I warned him as I grabbed my plate of food . He sighed as he also grabbed his plate. We walked into the sitting room .