Eternally yours(Sequel to 'Will you my saviour?')

Chapter 12- Lies and betrayals

TRIGGER WARNING: Slight mention of sexual abuse. Please do not read if you are bothered by it.

The stinging sensation shot through me causing me to cry out in pain as I scrubbed myself down in the shower. What I feared most and thought would never happen again, happened! Again! Andy had gotten me through it the first time and now I have no one. Richard. He had forced himself on me yesterday. And by now I had no more tears left to cry. Everything has gotten too much. Andy's claimed dead which I still can't accept, I do not see our daughter anymore, and I got raped for the second time in my life. What if I fall pregnant again? What if I get a disease? Richard is a fucking monster!

I slowly dragged myself out of the shower and dressed in my clothes for the day. Very slowly. It hurt to just move my legs. I can't go through this again. Why? Why me?

"Mr Purdy, breakfast is ready!"

"I'm not going to eat," I protested remaining still on my bed.

"You need-"

"I don't want to!"

The lady left the room and her words echoed through my ears, "Lets get the psychiatrist on his case."

Great. Now I will be interrogated by a shrink. It's not as if they can make anything better. It's pointless. They might have years and years of training in this field, but they will not understand what I'm going through. You cannot understand this unless you have been through it.

" Mr Purdy," I heard a voice in my room.

I looked up to a woman barely above 30. Great. A baby wants to get inside of my head and decide what I am feeling.

"I'm Doctor Stevens. Your-"

"Shrink," I scoffed.

I wanted to smack that smile from her face so badly.

" Follow me," she said.

I remained on my bed and she looked back at me, clearly baffled my reaction.

" Mr Purdy!"

I threw my head onto the pillow and blocked her out until eventually I felt a weight on my bed. She sat next to me and I turned my head to glare into her eyes threateningly . She remained calm and that smile was still on her face.

"Well since you don't want to follow me, I have no other option but to remain here."

Seriously. What this wrong with this woman?

"Mr Purdy I understand that-"

"Do you understand how it is to be raped. Because that's what happened yesterday. I was raped," I calmly broke her off.

The woman shook her head and shot up from my bed.

"We'll continue this later!" she said as she left my room.

She doesn't believe me. She thinks I'm crazy.

"Mr Purdy you have visitors!"

I got up from my bed and walked to the visitor's room. Once I reached my destination, the guys gasped and whispered to each other. Remaining as calm as I could, I sat down across from them and stared into the distance as I waited for them to finish their lengthy conversation. As they moved closer, I felt my body cripple with fear. I rubbed my sweaty palms on my thighs as I tried to comfort myself, hoping that they wouldn't hurt me. This was the first time I actually felt something since last night. Fear is the only emotion I have left. It's the only thing I know now.

"Ash," Jinxx started , "something's changed."

I was surprised that he could see it. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe the guys do care about me as much as Andy did. Maybe they won't hurt me. Maybe I could trust them. Jinxx examined me as he slowly moved closer to me and sat down next to me. I shuffled a bit as he sat down, taking myself away from him. Should I trust him? Should I trust them? But what if they don't believe me like everyone else? They already think I'm crazy just like everyone else!