Eternally yours(Sequel to 'Will you my saviour?')

Chapter 14 -Destruction of love

"CC. Are you still mad at me?" I asked as he stood in the middle of my kitchen, fiddling with his fingers.

"Look. I just brought this because Jake wanted me to. I'm not here to make peace," he replied. His voice was harsh and cold.

I still haven't explained what I did yesterday when I kissed Anna. And I can't bring myself to tell him why I did it. He will think that I'm being weak. That I'm being pathetic and selfish. He won't understand. But, he needs to know. He's one of my best friends and what I did is slowly devouring me from the inside. How could I try to ruin he and Anna's relationship?

"CC wait!" I pleaded as he was about to exit the kitchen.

He turned around and sighed loudly. His eyes rolled to the back of his head. "If this is about yesterday, I have no interest."

"Look I'm sorry-"

Before I could finish, CC had completed a full 360 degree turn and I had no option but to make myself heard.

"Christian Robert Mora your ass will remain in this house until I have said what I need to!"

"Then say what you need to!"

"I'm sorry for what I did. I didn't mean to come between you and Anna." No wait actually I did. " I mean actually I did."

"What the fuck Ashley?"

Sighing I slowly walked towards CC. I enveloped him in a hug as I started explaining why I did what I did.

"CC, I just. This may seem horrible. But yesterday when all of you guys were being in love with your wives I was reminded of what I don't have. And I guess I can't stand seeing other happily married couples. So I tried to ruin your happiness for you because I felt that everyone deserves to know what it feels like to have no one to love. I'm sooo sorry. Anna had nothing to do with it. I kissed her, I-"

"You were jealous so you tried to ruin our relationship?" CC shot.

What was I expecting? Of course he would react this way.

"No-"

"Shut up Ashley! I don't want to hear your fucking voice!"

And with that CC shut the door.

Great. I knew no one would understand my turmoil. No one ever will no matter how many times I try to explain to them. They don't understand what it's like to lose yourself.

"Dad!" Clementine shouted running down the stairs.

"You want lunch sweetheart? Or are you bored of your movies?" I asked smiling, remembering that I didn't totally lose myself. I still have my daughter.

"Nooo. I want to go to Alex."

What is this? My six year old daughter wanting to spend time with her friends instead of me. Impossible.

"Don't you want to spend the day with dad instead?" I ask her softly. "We can go get ice cream and see a movie."

Clementine groans in frustration.

"Fine. Let me call her parents to find out if you can go okay?"

Clementine nods excitedly and runs back upstairs. She still doesn't have her own phone and that is because Andy and I decided it would be best that way. The amount of child predators out there today is alarming . And she's six years old! A phone for her is a want and not a need.

Taking out my phone which surprisingly still works even though I haven't touched it for more than a year, I dial Alex's dad. The call is immediately answered.