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A request for biggestfangirlofshaw hope you like it hun ❤❤

Shawn's P.O.V

Lately I have been feeling like Y/N has been slipping away. I know she isnt sure of my feelings towards her and to be honest I hate that I dont know because I can see that this is slowly hurting and breaking her bit by bit.

I decided the best thing for us was if I broke up with her. She deserved someone who was sure of their feelings and could give her the love she was hoping for.

I ask her to meet me in the park so I can break up with her. I don't want to but it's for the best. I do love her it's just not in the way she wants me too.

I see her walk towards me looking as though she knows what is going to happen. There is a look of dread and sadness on her face.

"Hey Y/N."

"Hi shawn."

"So I guess you are wondering why I asked you to come here?"

"Yeah but I have a pretty good idea what you wanted to talk about." She says looking down.

"Yeah um...well here goes. I'm sorry Y/N but I have to break up with you. I love you I do but I'm unsure of my feelings properly, I love you but not in the way you want me to love you and if we properly did this I would never be around and you need someone to be there for you when you need. I'm so sorry I dont really know what I want or what I feel and I'm sorry for stringing you along in the process. I just cant give you the 100 percent commintement you are looking for right now and 100 percent is what you deserve. I'm so so sorry. "

"Its ok shawn I get it I cant force you to have feelings for me in the way I have them for you and this is probably for the best before we got in way to deep and I'd be hurt more than I am now. I love you shawn I do dont ever forget that."

"I know and I really am sorry Y/N I want to be with you but I just can't." I say that and a tear rolls down my cheek. I see her trying to hold in her tears but I hear her let out a little sob.

"Its ok shawn. I'm gonna go then if that's it."

She starts walking away and I see her wipe her eye with her sleeve. I want to go after her and comfort her but I cant because I'll just end up hurting her more. I saw her walking into the distance until I see her stop on a bench just in my eyeline.

She sits down on the beach and puts her head in her hands and starts crying. I cant believe I did that to her. I felt so guilty for breaking her. I didn't mean to but that was what was going to happen if I stayed with her or broke up with her.

I walk away back to my car and head home and when I get home I go into my drinks cabinet and just start drinking. Drinking my sorrows away.

Six months later.....

Y/N P.O.V

My friends dragged me to a bar after months of me saying indoors eating ice cream and just wallowing in self pity. I agreed to go out because it's been six months since shawn broke up with me and it's time to move on.

I get dressed into a tight fitting bodycon dress and curl ny hair. I decided I deserved a night to be happy so I actually dressed up for the occasion.

When we get to the club I look around and the first person I see that I know is of course shawn. He doesn't look like himself though. He is drunk of his head. It doesn't look like he has slept for days maybe even longer.

I go over to him and he recognises me instantly yells my name and almost falls over. I sit him down and call Brian to tell him what's happened.

Brian tells me that since he broke up with me this is the state he has been in. I take shawn home and stay the night to make sure he is alright.

I wake up before and go get a glass of water and some paracetamol for him for when he wakes up.

When he wakes up he looks confused. He sits up leaning on his elbows. After I explain everything he flops down onto the bed cover his face with his hands in embarrassment.

"I'm so sorry you had to see me like that."

"Why shawn? Why are drinking all the time?"

"Because after I broke up with you I realised that I loved you 100 percent and I would have told you but after the way I hurt you I didn't think you would want me back."

"Of course I would shawn I loved you then and I still love you now."

"You do?"

"Of course i do and I'm going to be with you every step of the way to get over your drinking problem. I'm not going anywhere."

"Thank you Y/N how did I get so lucky? I love you."

"I love you too shawn?"

"So will you take me back and be my girlfriend again?"

"Of course." I kiss him on the lips and he kisses me back.

Not long after that day shawn started falking to someone who specialises with drinking problems and was on his way to recovery. When he recovered everything went back to normal.

Me and shawn were in a good place and have never been so in love.

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