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c h a p t e r f i f t e e n

3:46 am

YOU
Hey, is anyone awake?
Wait, what am I saying. It's like four o'clock over there.

HERESYOURRAMEN
Oh, hey, Hayle.
What's up?

YOU
I missed you guys.
And I really wanted to talk to you.

CHANGAROO
That's sweet.

WANGTHEFUCK
waiT A KiWi PiCkInG mInUtE

FENNEC.F.CKER
What is it, babe?

WANGTHEFUCK
Babe—
Consider me dead.
The funeral is tomorrow if you guys were wondering.

YOU
I'll come. Bring the prettiest flowers for the prettiest flower.

FENNEC.F.CKER
Fuck off, Hayle.
I don't need competition.

YOU
Meh. It be like that.

HERESYOURRAMEN
What were you gonna say?

WANGTHEFUCK
Isn't it like thrEE AM OVER THERE?

YOU
Yeah ....
And?
Is there a problem?

CHANGAROO
OHMYGOD HAYLE.
GO TO SLEEP.
PLEASE.

HERESYOURRAMEN
That's why Addie and Olivia aren't texting.
And Cass and Skylar are in the same time zone. That makes a lot more sense now.
Liv said you have to start your job tomorrow, too.
Well at least, that's what she told me.

YOU
Yeah, I do start my new job tomorrow.
But I just couldn't sleep.
I've been trying to sleep for the past eight hours.
I just can't.
I keep freaking out and having my damn hallucinations again.
And my mind just keeps reminding me of my dad and my assault. It's just like all the negative thoughts are circling around me and I can't get them to be quiet. And there's a really big storm outside.
I'm scared.

CHANGAROO
Hayle ..., I'm so sorry.

YOU
I'm so sorry to dumb all my problems to this chat so randomly, but I'm crying so much right now. I'm not about to wake Addie and Olivia up, since they need their sleep. But I just wish I had someone to talk to.
I'm in our living room right now.
It's so dark.
And so cold.
But I don't want to turn on a light. I don't want to wake them up.
But I hate the dark.
I'm really sorry, guys.
I didn't mean to do that. But I just feel like all my mental shit is catching up to me. The weight issues, the depression ..., all of it.

HERESYOURRAMEN
I wish I could help.
Is there anything I could do?

WANGTHEFUCK
Do you need to call me?

FENNEC.F.CKER
I want to help, too, Hayle. I might joke around with you, but I really do love you.

YOU
Thank you guys.
But I have to get through this by myself.
I'm just watching old Lives with Chan.
Those really helped me for a long time.
One time, it even stopped me from taking my own life. And I'm hoping it can do the same now.

HERESYOURRAMEN
Wait, Hayle what are you saying??

WANGTHEFUCK
Are you saying what I think you're saying?

FENNEC.F.CKER
Hayle, please stay with us.

FENNEC.F.CKER
Hayle?

WANGTHEFUCK
HAYLE!!

HERESYOURRAMEN
Oh god.
This is not good.
Where's Jace.
Wait a minute.
Where did Chris go?

WANGTHEFUCK
CHRIS COME BACK.
WE NEED YOU.
HAYLE IS GONE.

YOU
Wait a second.

HERESYOURRAMEN
Oh thank GOD.

WANGTHEFUCK
ARE YOU OKAY??

FENNEC.F.CKER
Do we need to call you?

YOU
I'm not fine, but I just got a notification.

WANGTHEFUCK
What is it?
Oh wait.
I just got it, too.
Chan's going live.

YOU
I just clicked on it.
Hyunjin's there, too.

WANGTHEFUCK
He really does know whenever something's wrong, doesn't he?

HERESYOURRAMEN
That's insane.

4:02 am

YOU
Okay, now I'm crying even more.
I just want him to know how much he just helped me, but he'll never know.
And Hyunjin, too. He's normally just .... Hyunjin. But on this live, he's saying so many comforting things, what the hell?
It's like they know everything I'm going through.

WANGTHEFUCK
They do, Hayle.
Because they've been through it, too.
And just like them, I'm always going here for you.

YOU
Thank you, Imogen.

FENNEC.F.CKEE
We love you, Hayle.

HERESYOURRAMEN
Now just try and listen to the live and let it help you fall asleep, okay?

YOU
But I'm not sleepy.
I can listen for a minute, though.

YOU
I lobe yiu guyd.

WANGTHEFUCK
Um... what?

HERESYOURRAMEN
She probably fell asleep.
It looked like she couldn't see the keyboard and just fell asleep.

WANGTHEFUCK
Sleep well, Hayle.

HERESYOURRAMEN
Thank you for being such a light to us.
Being willing to listen even when we never listen to you.

FENNEC.F.CKER
And thank you for brining all of us together.
Imogen and I. And Chris and Addie. And Olivia and Liam.
You truly are someone special.
I'm so glad I met you.

GLOWING.JIN
Get some rest, angel. Get your strength up for tomorrow.
I'll always be here for you. I love you.