♡𝕚𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕟𝕖𝕥 𝕒𝕤𝕤𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕖♡ - 𝕙𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕘 𝕙𝕪𝕦𝕟𝕛𝕚𝕟

c h a p t e r t w e n t y

A/N: Feeling like Y/N, not gonna lie. You go from my crush to my mans. 💛
Damn that didn't age well either.  I'm the queen of clowns 🤡

5:49 am

YOU
Wait.
I just realised.

GLOWING.JIN
What did you just realise?

YOU
The V-Live.

GLOWING.JIN
There are a lot of those, Hayle.
You're gonna have to be more specific.

YOU
You know, the one that helped me?
When I was freaking out?

GLOWING.JIN
oH, that live.
I was literally so worried about you, I don't think you know how terrified I was.

YOU
I honestly kind of hated you in that moment.

GLOWING.JIN
I was just about to ask why, but then I realised.

YOU
Yeah, you kinda seemed like an asshole in that moment.
Leaving the chat as soon as I started having trouble.

GLOWING.JIN
I know that's what it seemed like, but I can promise you, I would never do that.

YOU
I know, Hyunjin, calm down.

GLOWING.JIN
I just don't want you to hate me.

YOU
I don't, idiot.
And when I say idiot, I mean it in the most loving way possible.

GLOWING.JIN
Don't worry about it.
You didn't know who I was at that point.
And if I was in your situation, I would've hated me, too.
Wait.
That sounded kind of stupid.

YOU
It's okay. I understand.
I'm just surprised that I now realised.

GLOWING.JIN
What did you realise?

YOU
Wow, Liam was right.
Well, Felix was right.
You're not the brightest person.

GLOWING.JIN
shuT UP.

YOU
I'm just messing with you.
I think it's cute.
So don't worry about it.

GLOWING.JIN
Well thank you.
But could you please explain what you mean?
I have no idea what you're talking about.

YOU
I just realised that when I was freaking out on the groupchat, you ghosted and I got really mad at you.

GLOWING.JIN
Yeah, we've been through this.

YOU
Let me finish my story, idiot.

GLOWING.JIN
Right, sorry.

YOU
anyWAYS
I went to YouTube to see all of the moments Chan has tried to comfort the Stays because it's actually really sweet to me and has helped me through a lot of shit. And even though that was helping me, I still felt terrible. And then, all of the sudden, I get a notification that he went Live.
And as soon as I clicked it, he was right there, looking into the camera with such caring eyes.
But this time, it was different. Someone else was there. Looking into the camera just like Chan was, but with such a gentle smile that seemed to whisper, "It's okay. You're alright. You're loved."
And I just realised ..., that was you.

GLOWING.JIN
Yeah. It was.
I felt really bad about leaving you, but I was hoping once I told you who I was, you'd forgive me.
Not that me being Hyunjin would make you forgive me, or anything like that. I didn't mean it like that.
I just meant that you would realise that I did hear you. And I didn't ignore you.

YOU
I know.
And I'm crying so much right now because I realised that you did that for me.
Looking back at it through some fan recordings on YouTube, all of those things you said ..., I was so confused as to how you seemed to know exactly what was going on. And now, I realise that you did know what was going on.

GLOWING.JIN
As soon as I heard that you were having a hard time, I ran to Chan's room and asked him if he could do a Live.
At first, he was really confused, but when he looked up from his phone, he understood what I was asking for. He was so focused on helping you, but even then, he let me be on the Live.

YOU
But I just can't even get the fact through my head that you were helping me. You knew that I was going through a hard time, and even though you knew I thought that you were ignoring me, you were willing to sacrifice my approval for actually helping me.

GLOWING.JIN
I would do anything to make sure that you're okay. I don't care what happens to me, or what you think of me. You're always first. And I have even more of a responsibility to help you now.

YOU
But, Hyunjin. You need to be able to put yourself first, too.
I know that it's hard to, sometimes, but really.
I appreciate you helping me, but I want you to be helped, as well.

GLOWING.JIN
Thank you for thinking of me.
But I want to help you.

YOU
You did.

GLOWING.JIN
And I'm glad I did.
And I'm also glad that you don't hate me.

YOU
Well, you make it pretty hard to not hate you.

GLOWING.JIN
Aw, thanks.
That's really sweet.

GLOWING.JIN
waIT A MINUTE
DID YOU JUST?!

YOU
Did I just what?

GLOWING.JIN
You just said it's hard to NOT hate you!

YOU
.... Yes.
I did.

GLOWING.JIN
But why?

YOU
You would have seen that if you had just read it.

GLOWING.JIN
But I did!

YOU
Oh, shut up, you big baby.

GLOWING.JIN
I'm the big baby?
You say that, but yet you're my baby.

YOU
Umm, what are you talking about?

GLOWING.JIN
Come on, baby.
Do I really need to spell it out for you?
I don't think you're the one on top here, no matter how much you want to be.

YOU
hyUNJIN!
DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU'RE IMPLYING?!?!?!

GLOWING.JIN
Yeah, I do, babygirl.
Why do you think I said it?

YOU
Okay, explain to me real quick.
First of all, why is that kinda hot.
SeconDLY, HOW DID YOU CHANGE PERSONALITIES SO FAST.
THE DUALITY IS REAL.
It's just like the persona you have when you're dancing.
One second, a cute little dumb bean, and then bAM, mullet sporting fuckboy.

GLOWING.JIN
I don't know whether to take that as a compliment or not.

YOU
.... Truth be told, I don't know either.

GLOWING.JIN
Well, for now, just know that the side you see when I'm dancing?
That's only for you, babe.

YOU
eYE—

A/N: I miss the group chat, so that's coming up soon I promise.