Stay With Me

Fault in myself

Third person's P.O.V.

Kyungsoo returns home little bit early. Kai  has informed that will be late  today . Although the restaurant load is increasing day by day,but still Kyungsoo tries his best to give  enough time for their only baby boy.

As Kyungsoo enters in nursery Room,he finds the Jongsoo is drawing in his art book while sitting in his nanny's lap. Looking at mother Jongsoo broads his hands,he wants his mommy's lap now.

"Eomma....."

Kyungsoo takes Jongsoo in his lap. The middle aged nanny smiles at Kyungsoo. She is the reason Kyungsoo can remain bit relieved thinking someone is taking care of Jongsoo properly.

"Was Jongsoo a good boy today,Ajumma? Have eaten vegetables? Taken bath not so long? Slept in afternoon or played whole day?"

"Jongsoo was a good boy...He has drawn dinosaur all day. Eaten properly. Slept properly."

"Ajumma,Kai will be late tonight. You don't have to stay long. Just help me to prepare simple dinner."

"Okay... By the way... Is Baekhyun okay? He didn't come outside from his  room all day. Even didn't eat lunch. I knocked his door several time . He said he is not hungry."

"Really? Okay,I am gonna check him first," Kyungsoo hands Jongsoo to his nanny again.

Standing Infront of Baekhyun's locked door, Kyungsoo knocks loudly,

"Baekie? ... Baekie?.... Yah! Baekhyun!...."

After sometimes Baekhyun response.

"What, Kyungsoo?"

"Open the door right now."

Baekhyun knows it's not easy to deal with Kyungsoo when he is determined. He takes time to fix himself,then open the door.

Looking at Baekhyun with red cheeks, messy hair and still on the morning dress, Kyungsoo asks anxiously,

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing wrong," Baekhyun let's Kyungsoo to enter in his room .

"Why you even haven't switch on the light? " Kyungsoo switchs on the light of the room . A messed up room becomes clear to him. Baekhyun is now on the bed sitting .

"Are you still upset about the morning incidence?" Kyungsoo asks again although Baekhyun isn't answering.

"No... " Baekhyun tries to hold on his sob.

"Baekhyun-ah, it's totally okay,if you don't want . But you can't act like you are broken. May be someone far better will come in your life. Don't act like teenager girl who have just broken up with boyfriend because of betray," Kyungsoo sits beside Baekhyun .

" I am not upset, Kyungsoo. I am trying to find what's wrong with me." Baekhyun wipes the tear before it falls from eye.

"Nothing wrong. It's Sehun hyung's fault,not yours. Don't cry," Kyungsoo pats on Baekhyun's back.

"But it happens always  with me. Why it happens always with me? Whenever I try to trust someone,they go away from me,they betray me. Chanyeol... Sehun hyung.... Everyone..... I am a fault..." Baekhyun sobs loudly. All day the past memories has haunt him like ghost. Baekhyun has remembered a lot of things .

"No .... Absolutely no.... It's obviously Sehun hyung's fault. And Chanyeol hyung isn't someone that you deserve."

"And you two too, Kyungsoo. Why you guys are hiding my past from me? You should say me all these just after I lost my memories. This is my life. I deserve to know what happened in my life. It's yours fault too. If I knew what happened I wouldn't let Sehun hyung to use those words to me. I think I am just in the wrong time, wrong place, around wrong people. I am tired of everyday's drama. All of you are just doing nothing than humiliating me everyday," Baekhyun breaks into tears totally.

Kyungsoo remains frozen hearing those. He remains silent for a bit and then says,

"We always want the best for you. Are you blaming us thinking we supported Sehun hyung? Never. You are our only priority. Baekhyun,the past has disappeared from your life,we don't want a little bit shadow of it on you anymore. I know it hurts.We didn't know how to say those memories to you, which weren't part of your brain anymore. Let's the past remain in mist. No matter what I will support you and protect you until the last."

"It's easy for you to say, because it didn't happen with you. You are the luckiest person I have ever seen. You have got Kai hyung. You will never understand the pain of betray. It's okay, everyone doesn't deserve to be happy," Baekhyun tries to be normal.

Kyungsoo forcefully makes Baekhyun to eat dinner. Kyungsoo leaves the switching of the bright light of room, and turn on the light blue dim light. After some times Baekhyun gets up from bed ,and turn off the dim light.
The light is becoming so intolerable for him. He is having headache because of it. Only darkness is giving a bit relief to him.

Hugging the pillow Baekhyun lies down on bed. In the dark calm quiet past memories starts to attack him again.

Baekhyun was in almost subconscious condition, until the mid night....

In mid night Baekhyun gets up from bed and runs towards the bathroom to throw up the dinner that Kyungsoo made him forcefully to eat.

Baekhyun throws up even the last drop of water that was in his stomach.  Standing Infront of the basin mirror , Baekhyun can't imagine it's he. Tears continuous falling from his eyes. He gives gush of water on his face to remove the tears away. But the sound of flow of water is even seeming intolerable to him.

Baekhyun looks at his face for the last time before he turns off the tap water tightly so that it's sound doesn't bother him. He turns off even the bathroom's light, that usually  remains turn on whole night.

Right now Baekhyun needs darkness, soundless clam environment and coldness.....These can give him some comfort from these burning headache....

He can do these to relieve from burning headache,but what he can do for his burning heart?

"Is it me? Am I so pathetic to everyone? I am the only one to get betrayed and to get lose," Baekhyun sits on the cold bathroom floor and  leans on the cold wall.

Before sometimes he has remembered something terrible.....The car accident....the night Chanyeol chose another one rather than him .... The night he got abused, betrayed and lost the hope that he thought to be solution of his life...... Baekhyun wants to scream in the pain of his heart,but the headache is getting worse. The things Baekhyun wants now are more darkness ,more coldness,more soundless...... Baekhyun lies down on the cold floor, a loud sobs escape from his throat,

"I am nothing but a fault..."

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Don't know what I have written....My written exam is running on.... I am exhausted in the huge syllabus of my study.....

Is it so lame?... I can't understand... Just written to get some relieve from stress of study....

Let me know,if you like this episode.... Otherwise I have to rewrite it....

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