Emotional Confusion

2.7K 173 166
                                    

"I swear if I find out later that you are talking lies,then we will just end right then," Baekhyun threats Chanyeol.

Chanyeol leaves a sigh, Baekhyun is getting harder day by day to deal. But it's okay,at least giving threat means he is not leaving right now.

"What was and is your relationship with that Sandara?" Baekhyun leans on the table, releasing his hand from Chanyeol's grip.

"We went to same high school. Actually I transferred to that school. She was so friendly and helpful for me. Soon we started to share good friendship. Actually our dating started suddenly, it was bit provoked. We both were popular and there was gossip everywhere about our relationship more than best friends. It just happened suddenly.  We continued to date until Sandara went to USA with her family. Suddenly 3 years ago I met her again as my colleague,I was already married to you. Everything happened so fast from then."

"So our marriage was the main obstacle for you to return to Sandara. You two didn't break your relationship officially ,so after meeting you started again and wanted to get rid of me."

"No... Definitely no.... She was depressed at that moment about the way of her life . She is from a broken family . She seeked help from me. I just wanted to help her as her old nearest friend," Chanyeol tries to explain.

"Not old friend, say Ex-girlfriend," Baekhyun says in hateful voice.

"Okay...  Whatever... But no matter what ex means past, right?"

"Your ex suddenly returned,you discovered you were already tied up with someone whom you don't want. You started abandoning me. .... No ...no,not me. You started abandoning us. You cheated on me."

"I never cheated you, Baek. I never abandoned any of you. I was just .... I don't know why I was such jerk," Chanyeol shutters.

"Can you remember the days when you used to made me hurt even cry for simple issues? That's not abandoning? That's not ignorance? You didn't like the idea that your mother forced me to say you for anniversary. It's okay. I was used to with your that type of behaviour. But you didn't attend our appointed dinner,to attend dinner with her. How can I forget it? I saw you two together that night. I tried to remember standing there when  you last behaved that type of happiness with me. You know what Chanyeol after staying with you one year, you still don't know me,but I know you so much better than anyone. I knew still then,but I just kept my eyes shut down with the hope you will change. Right now I am waiting for your confession what you was actually doing right then."

Baekhyun stops and looks at Chanyeol's eyes . He waits for answer few minutes. Then says in cold voice,

" Answer,Chanyeol...."

"Okay...... Yes ...... I was still having feelings for her. It was just emotional confusion. But I swear to god,I didn't had intention from first for it. Even several time I tried to keep myself away from her. I liked her just, I didn't know whether I love her or not. Just a confusing state nothing else....." Chanyeol tries to explain.

"How much intimate moments you share together? She stays so close to you. She knows your room so better. You two spent a lot sweet memories here, right?" Baekhyun fakes a smile.

Chanyeol leaves a long sigh," I won't hide anything. Okay,we shared bit intimated moments just kisses on high school affair until she went to USA. But after that nothing happened between us. She was my colleague just about 1 and half months. She took leave from here a short after your accident , actually I had a fight with her regarding you. Sandara wanted to build up our relationship as couple. But it was not possible for me to love anyone except you. She left suddenly until today I again met for special episode of reality show. You said you only want truth,after that accident I realized I only love you . My confusion just washed away ,when I found you in injured condition. For the first time I felt my heart was clenching in unbearable pain for you what I never felt before. Still then I didn't know what I had lost because of my irresponsible behaviour. I didn't know you were pregnant. Sorry I couldn't take care of you that time and I couldn't protect ours babies."

"But you could save at least one. You let them abort my baby. You wasn't with me that night. Where were you? With Sandara obviously........," Baekhyun brusts into anger.

"Do you really think me like that, Baekhyun? I didn't leave you . I was just afraid. My hands were shaking so badly. I didn't have any idea still then it was twin. And I knew I couldn't tolerate myself even others to let cut open your body. I waited alnight outside the O.T. Ask Kai and Kyungsoo even they can't deny it,where I was. A special board of doctors was built up for you. Your condition was not favourable to carry baby anymore. Baekhyun ,how long time you needed to recover? Do you think in that condition it was possible?"

"Do think it's possible for everything to be okay between us?" Baekhyun tries to calm down.

"Why not?" Chanyeol furrows his eyebrows.

"Why you have come back to my way again?"

"Because I only love you. Mine with Sandara was never love affair. She just took advantage of me. The last time she just made up the rumour that we were dating again. I don't blame Sehun for it. I even got concerned when I suddenly discovered it was really a topic of gossip about that made-up extramarital relationship. Even you know what I was one of the suspects in the lawsuit of your case. Police interrogated me that I made up this accident with you by hiring people. I was always yours only,still yours only," Chanyeol cups Baekhyun's face.

"Why you are not saying the truth? That I can't ever conceive again. That's why you are showing me sympathy by taking back," Baekhyun removes the hands from his chin.

"Aish!!!.... Sandara will never change. Sandara said, right? What the hell is her problem when it's our personal matter?" Chanyeol holds his head with hand  in frustration.

"So... It's true.....???" Baekhyun asks with fear.

"No..... I don't think......," Chanyeol replies without hesitation.

"Do you want me to take test for it?"

"No.... You don't have to...."

"Because you already know...."

"Baekhyun,it really doesn't matter to me whenever it's negative or positive. I don't care. I am okay if just you are with me."

"Yeah,why you will care? Nothing matters to you. Whatever you do you can never compensate my loss," Baekhyun says in depressed voice.

"I never ever wanted such things to happen. Yes,you suffered terribly in pshysical trauma. But you lost your memory and those memories made me to haunt everyday. "

"What's the possibility you will not again fall for another one ? What if your emotional confusion again starts to build up for someone and I have to suffer again," Baekhyun stands face to face with Chanyeol.

"Such thing will never happen. If it would happen,it could just happen in these 3 years. Baekhyun, I am back to you. I approached to you. I had way to cross away. But I didn't."

"I had an emotional confusion inside me which is now cleared,"Baekhyun increase the distance between them.

"What was it?" Chanyeol tries to understand.

"After what has happened I can't stay with you. I know I am pathetic. But I don't deserve person like you. I need a human beside me who will understand me and share sorrow-happiness with me. He doesn't need to be so well established figure like you. Just a human,not a monster. I  don't think you have any emotion for our babies. You are doing these to hide your regrets for indirectly killing them. You are the killer of them and my happiness. I hate you,Park Chanyeol........."

          *************************

Hi.....

I think , Chanyeol deserves it...

Do you think it's okay to Baekhyun react like that?

Keep me in prayer.

Vote and comment ,if you like it.

Love you guys❤️❤️❤️



Stay With MeWhere stories live. Discover now