(OLD CRINGE) Art, Vents, And Shit

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Oh yeah hahaha another vent heeheeheehee so fucking funny. I just- I'm so goddamn ugly, like it's not even funny. My nose looks weird, my head always has dried blood on it, I pick my lips (making me uglier and making people think I have herpes, isn't it just amazing to be alive), my cheeks are so fat (making me look like a hamster), I'm pale sometimes and tan sometimes (I look gross either way), and I will always feel like a fatass no matter how many times people tell me I'm skinny.

I saw a car with "no fat chicks" and "panty dropper" and "badass bitches only" and I just wanted to cry. I probably will in a few minutes, I just have to wait for my mom to leave the house to go to work. Not only are they obviously childish or idiotic, I mean, really? REALLY? Why do people have to be such hateful assholes? Why can't we all just be friends? It just- why do people feel the need to be so hateful? I don't get it. I mean, I fully understand that people like sex and shit like that, but do you need to show it that much? And, if you do, that's fine, but you can't just say "no fat chicks"... that's so hurtful. It's a real problem for people to feel overweight even when they aren't. That just hit me so hard, and I don't know how to get it out of my head. It hurts so badly. Yeah, I'm probably around 110 pounds while 15 years old, but I don't look that way. I look fat. I'm disgusting and I don't know what to do about it anymore.

People make jokes with me about my insecurities and it all just hurts so badly. I mean, I guess it's not as bad as it used to be. Before, my friends would hit me. I used to get slapped sometimes. But whatever, I'm fine now. Lol, I'm just tired. I have therapy tomorrow, and I honestly am so excited. I'm going to feel better for a week, only for my depression to come back as it always does! Hooray for me! Woo-hoo! Can't wait!