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Mate

Katsuki Bakugou

(Angst)

I was more confused than anything. After going through what had just happened, I was in a state of shock. Not only because I had just felt my mate getting fucked by someone else -- but also because it only happened once. It completely shook down the one thing that was keeping me together. The one thing that was holding my anger and pain was the fact that I blamed it on Izuku's heat.

But it wasn't his heat if it only happened once. Unless Izuku came to his senses and kicked the guy out. However, I highly doubt that was the case. More than likely it was my mate deciding to sleep with another man, and that hurt more than I could have prepared for. 

I lied in my room for a few days after the incident. I didn't dare move or leave the confinement of my bedroom. I was beyond embarrassed and mortified about what had happened in front of my parents. I was angry -- angry at my mother and father -- angry at myself -- angry at whoever was touching my mate.

For once, the only person I was not angry at was Izuku.

I wasn't mad at him. I was worried about him. I tried calling him again after I was released from the phantom feelings of what Izuku was experiencing. I called and sobbed over the voicemail -- begging him to call me back and just talk to me. I don't remember a time before that I had cried so hard.

Three days had passed and I still refused to venture out of my safety. I couldn't face my parents right now, and they knew to stay away. I was pissed and couldn't be sure that the next time my father opened his mouth about my mate that I wouldn't rip him apart. They lied to me for so long and let me become the asshole that I was.

Even a part of me knew that they wanted to protect me, but by protecting me at the moment, they ruined me. They ruined Izuku. The Omega suffered for so long and I didn't care until recently. They let me continue on that path of hatred and now I have lost my mate. My friends have torn apart and Izuku was off who-knows-where.

My mind took me back to the fact that he was fucking someone else and I wanted to be mad. I wanted to throw a fit and scream. I wanted to hunt him down and demand his return -- but that would get me nowhere. Izuku wanted to leave, for whatever reason he did, and now I must deal with the consequences of his actions -- of both our actions. I only hoped that he wasn't being forced into anything. If he chose to sleep around, that was his choice. I wished he wouldn't because he knew I would feel it. Did he know to the extent though? Maybe he did and this was my punishment for hurting him and failing as his Alpha.

I curled my body up and stretched my stiff limbs out. I would need to get food soon and work out the kinks in my back from sleeping all the time. I shifted and moved out of my messy bed and took a sniff. I flinched and groaned. I smelt terrible and needed a shower. The promise of a hot shower encouraged me to move again and I quickly found myself in the shower, under the jets, and closing my eyes as the water worked my body into relaxation.