Divergent High

Fifty Fourth chapter

Four's POV

I check Tris out of the hospital, still not talking to her unless necessary because of the guilt I am feeling, and we head out.

We walk in the parking lot until we reach my car.

- Is this you car? - She asks, with hope in her eyes, as If she was expecting I will smile or kiss her like I used to. But that doesn't happen, I just nod, not looking at her or giving her a smile.

She sighs and looks the other way.

I am aware of the murderous glare Zeke is giving me, I hope Tris doesn't notice, and if she does, she doesn't ask about it.

- So... Where is each of you going? - She asks, as if trying to break the tension. I look at her in what I think is a subtle way.

- Well - Christina says - I asked for permission to stay here for a month so I think I am going to pay my parents a visit.

- And maybe Will - Shauna mutters. Christina just glares at her.

- What about you Zeke? - Tris asks, in a poor attempt to break the tension... Again. He looks at her, startled by her voice and takes his time to answer.

- Shauna and I are going back to the university - He says, looking at Shauna. She nods, silently agreeing with him.

- What about you? - Shauna asks, sounding really interested in what would Tris' answer be, I am too.

- Well I am going back to Canada - As soon as that words escape from her mouth a big NO is forming in mine and I gladly let it out.

- You CAN'T and WON'T get on a plane!! - I say, angry and frustrated.

She mutters something but I don't hear. She clears her throat and looks me in the eye - Why can't I get on a plane?

- You didn't listen!? Do you even pay attention to anything else than yourself? Or Caleb!? - I yell at her, finally letting out the frustration I've been feeling.

But the satisfaction disappears as soon as her face turns red.

- Don't you dare talk to me that way!! - She yells.

I take a deep breath and then I turn around, trying not to let my anger get the best of me.

- You can't go because of your lung - I say trying to keep my voice in a calm tone.

- What does my stupid lung has to do with this? - She says. I can feel her move but I can't get myself to look at her.

- You wouldn't be able to breath properly on a plane! It's too high!! - I explain.

- But I need to see Caleb!!! - She says, stubborn as always. What is the thing with her brother?

- Why!? He didn't come!! Dr. Rogers called him!! And he didn't come!! - I say. I have to a admit that it was a really cruel thing to say but I really want to know, want her to see.

- Because he is all I have left!!! - She says, her breathing becoming uneven. I worry we will have to go back to the hospital again.

That comment really hurt me. I am here for her to!! I feel guilty, for not being there for her these past days and for lying to her to keep her from hurting but instead I am causing her pain.

I turn around and look at her.

- You have me - I say in a soft voice, trying to make her understand what I feel but for some reason this seems to set her off.

- Then show it to me!!! Show me that you love me!!! - She yells at me then turns around and walks with a limp, out of the parking lot with Christina following behind.

And that just broke me.

- You are an idiot Four - Shauna says.

- Oh no you too... - I say, just what I needed, another person hating me.

- Well it's the true I don't know what's your deal but you need to stop hurting Tris - She says, her arms crossed over her chest.

- His deal - Zeke says in a deadly voice - is that he tricked Tris into believing that nothing happened in the week that she can't remember. He played with her memories!!

Shauna's mouth drop and her eyes go wide.

- How... Could... You?

- I am sorry but I can fix it... Just don't tell her the truth - I beg

- Look what you did! You've push her away - Zeke says.

- you know something - I say walking towards him and stand right in his face - I don't you here to remind of the mistakes that I've done, I know them pretty well.

- Then why do you keep repeating them!? - He yells at me.

I am speechless so I just sit and cover my face with my hands and crouch down.

I hear Tris' light steps, ones heavier than other because of her limp and Christina's energetic skips.

-What's going on here? - Christina asks.

I let out a silent sigh.

Time to face reality.