TRIGGER WARNING: abuse
“happy birthday to you..”
john laurens drowned the voices out with his own thoughts.
he hates you.
you're too fat.
he'll stay if you starve.
“john? sweetie, are you alright?” john's mother asked, worried.
“my.. my stomach hurts, ma..” john sighed. “can i eat my cake and pizza later?”
“of Course.. get some rest.”
with that, john headed upstairs and flopped on his bed, gripping his pillow as he cried.
john then grabbed his phone, and texted his boyfriend.
john: baby?
my love; ‘yes, sweetheart?’
john: ‘am i fat..?’
my love; ‘of course not, peaches. you know i only say that as a joke, right?’
john: ‘okay..”
my love; ‘see ya at school tomorrow, sweetheart!’
sighing, john set the phone down and laid down. he questioned if francis was actually the right one for him, one voice said yes, the other said no.
•time skip to the next day•
“hey, hottie!” francis greeted john, his hands on john's waist.
“hi.." john whispered. he didn't like the new nickname.
“how are you? have you eaten today?”
john shook his head. “i haven't eaten.. but i'm okay, i guess..”
“good, you need to lay of a few pounds. you're getting fatter and i don't wanna be seen with someone like you in public.”
john looked down, tearing up.
francis rolled his eyes, “quit being so sensitive, damn.. you know it's the truth..”
'is it..?' john thought to himself.
is it..?
“anyways, are you free tonight?”
“yeah.. why?” john looked up at him.
“the fuck you mean why? ’cause i wanna come over, god, you're so stupid.”
“oh- sorry..” john frowned.
how would he ever be able to leave this man?
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RandomTRIGGER WARNING: EATING DISORDER - when john laurens was 12, his best friend, francis kinloch, called him fat. when john laurens was 13, his crush, francis kinloch, called him fat. when john laurens was 14, his boyfriend, francis kinloch, called hi...
