Loving You, Loving Me

Chapter 44 b

Chapter 44b

Being part of Wayo and Phana

When Ming left Ai'Yo to go help P'Forth and the rest of his seniors at the engineering faculty, he had a bad feeling but he didn't think Yo would do anything crazy. His thoughts were quickly taken over by the thought of what Ai'Yo had revealed: that he was no longer a virgin.

It was hard for Ming to imagine his innocent little friend finally taking such a big step. But he was more concerned about his own inability to figure out what was next for him.

Ming and Kit had not gone any further after that night at his home when P'Kit had finally accepted him. Their status was cemented and P'Kit was so much nicer to him. But Ming had been wondering what it would take to move their relationship to the next level. No ideas were easily forthcoming but still the question plagued him endlessly.

Ming's POV

"I'm always with P'Kit, while P'Beam went to this remote province with P'Forth. Who is this 'friend' P'Pha is referring to?"

It was an offhand comment I made to Wayo during lunch. I was trying to figure out his problem not knowing I was getting myself into one. Yo mentioned it to P'Pha who then told the rest of the medical gang earning P'Kit a lot of teasing from P'Beam. Not that P'Kit couldn't give back as good as he got. It just meant that when I went over to his dorm room to see him, he initially wouldn't open the door for me.

"Please P'Kit. I'm sorry if what I said upset you." I was standing right outside his door but I was loud enough for fear that he wouldn't hear me making my begging was clear to anyone who happened by. "I was just telling Yo the truth."

That got him to crack open the door and glared at me. P'Kit put his head out to check the corridor checking it suspiciously. "Do you want everyone to hear you...again?"

"There's nobody here." I assured him.

"Get inside." He said grabbing my hand and pulling me into the room quickly then slamming the door shut behind me.

Regardless of his unreasonable fear that someone would hear me, I was glad to be inside his room with him rather than standing on the other side of the door. But he looked upset enough that I wasn't ready to celebrate.

I walked to the bed and sat down on the edge but he didn't come to me like he normally did. Usually he would stand between my legs. Sometimes he would kiss me. Sometimes I would hug him tight and just breathe him in. Every time, regardless of what we did, I felt like I had come home.

I did not feel like that right now. I felt like I was standing in front of a firing squad and I had three seconds to defend myself before he shot me in the head. I gulped nervously.

"Why would you tell P'Beam that we are always together?" P'Kit asked in obvious distress.

"Because we are." I said like it was the most obvious thing.

"No we aren't." He denied. "We have class and study time and then you hang out with Yo and I sometimes just spend time in my room. We are not always together!"

"You're right. Perhaps what I should have said is that we spend all our free time together. Would that have been better?"

"Are you also making fun of me?"

"No P'Kit. I'm trying to understand what is going on and why you are so upset." I placated him.

"I don't know...I...I...ugh...I hate you."

He was just about to walk passed me so I reached out and grabbed him by the hand. I pulled him into my arms the way I normally would have if he hadn't so mad at me. Taking a chance that this was all bluster and not actual anger. I held him close. Not so tight that he couldn't get away from me if he wanted. But not so loose that he could just shrug me off. Then I waited.