Where are you?

-Chapter 2-

Moonbyul Pov
After performing our newest song, Hip, I head to the bathroom and lock myself in the stall. I take a deep breath and close my eyes in hopes of easing the war in my head. I hear the bathroom door open and hold my breath already knowing who it was.

"Byul?" Her voice calls out to me softly that I forget got to breath. "Yeah?" I answer back flushing the toilet to make it look real and slowly head outside out to "wash my hands". "Are you okay?" She asks with worried eyes so I smile at her in hopes of easing her worries even though I was drowning in my own sorrows.

"You know you can talk to me, right?" She says taking a closer step to me and I smile and pat her head. "I know, but don't overthink it Unnie, I'm fine." I say leaving her in the bathroom, heading towards the dressing room. As I enter the room I see both young girls laying on the couch with their eyes closed and I could only assume that they fell asleep.

I take a step forward to only take one back and make my way towards the rooftop for some fresh air. Memories were replaying in my head over and over, it was torture to be trapped in your own mind. I felt myself relax a bit as I make it to the top to see a beautiful view from here.

I let a tear roll down my face as the pain increases, but the worst thing was not even the calmest touch could soothe this heart of mine. I was a mess and my mind continued to fall apart, but I couldn't even do a single thing about it expect to let it happen. To let this pain eat me up in silence while having to pretend that I'm fine on the outside.

"Byul unnie?" I jump a bit as I hear my name being called out from behind me. I turn to see Wheein looking at me intently as if she was trying to put a puzzle together, but was missing some pieces. "Wheein, what are you doing up here?" I ask and look back at the view as I hear her footsteps approaching getting closer to me. "I was looking for you." Was all she says and we stay in silence as we watch the view of the city from here.

"Well you found me." I say with a chuckle and look to see her have a small smile. "Yes I did, but what are you doing up here alone?" She asks looking back at me as I smile and look at the view once again. "I needed some fresh air." I simply say and don't give much of an explanation after that but she doesn't seem to mind.

"It's okay you know?" She says and I don't speak a word because my throat felt dry. I knew she had figured out what exactly was bothering me at this point. "What are you talking about?" I play dumb to hide myself away from those closet to me, but I hear her sigh. "The pain you're carrying on your shoulders its obvious Unnie. And it's okay to be in pain, but to bear it alone is not okay." She explains and I felt tears welling up in my eyes as I knew what I was dealing with was beyond my control at this point.

"I'm okay Wheein. There's no need to worry about anything. And I suggest not overthinking things you'll hurt yourself and create more curiosity to yourself." I say with a smile as I pat her head like a cute puppy. "I'm not dumb unnie. I can see it in your eyes. They say all the things that you don't speak and I could easily tell how you're drowning in this cruel pain you've put yourself through." She says sternly as I let out a chuckle knowing she was one to talk.

"Then what about you Wheein?" I say tilting my head to the side to get a look at the confusion written all over her face. "What about me?" She says with her hands crossed over chest waiting for an answer. "You're doing the same as me, but why help me?" I say and that caught her by surprise as she has her mouth open to only close it quickly.

"I'm not but let me help you unnie." She whispers and I could tell she was desperate to help me, but how could she help me? "You're drowning and you want to help me? I can see your eyes silently screaming for help, but the most important thing is how every breath you take you wish you didn't. The way your gasping for air and just hoping it would all stop, but it doesn't because that's just our reality. You trying to save me will end up in both of us drowning. You died. I died. And the people around us will be consumed by the pain that killed us. It's not worth it." I say and look out to the view and the air was thick with nothing but our truth.

I've managed to finish this even though I'm a party so I hope you guys enjoy this chapter. I've put some of my own feelings into to this as it this book that will be more on how people fight to deal with their demons and problem. And I'm sorry for any mistakes but I hope you have a good day!!!