Where are you?

-Chapter 14-

Yongsun pov
"So what if we were to date? I don't remember you being her girlfriend." I kept replaying those words in my head and she was right. I had no control over who Byul was friends with and I definitely had no control over how she felt. But I wished i was with her, but instead she had relied on Irene to comfort her and the reason for it was unknown to me.

I felt as if Byul was slipping away from me, but every step towards her was always two steps backwards. I couldn't reach out to her, especially when she wasn't letting herself, but I was willing to put in the effort. And I also knew I'd have to apologize to Irene even though there's a part of me that simply can't. I felt anger towards both of them, but wouldn't allow it to control my actions.

I sigh and walk around my apartment and simply think back to the way Byul would laugh at me from my bed as I danced. The way she had never once judged me for my mistakes and had always been a shoulder to cry on. She was always there when I had fallen, but I could suddenly feel a slight bit of pain in my heart. It was craving her attention, but most importantly it was craving her love.

I knew Byul could never feel the same way I did, but I had the slightest hope within me and I did what I could to keep it low. I kept to myself even when I felt like yelling and crying. I'd like to think I have things under control, but that would simply be a lie that would keep me satisfied. Things were spiraling down and I had no control, but I felt myself want to spiral down.

Things were difficult, but I had to put all my effort into the things I did to keep those around me satisfied. But by doing that it was pushing me close to the edge that I've done to stay away from. I wanted to just breathe for one second. I wanted to know who had put the world on my back and not in my hands. This was cruel and I had wanted a moment to show the real me, but doing so would cause backlash for the simplicity of that.

I wanted a moment to show my love for Byul, but she probably has someone already in her heart and I would do anything to make sure she was happy. To know she was loved and cared for even though I wasn't the one to doing those things for her. And maybe it was Joohyun who was the one who would do that and if that was the case then I knew she would be in great hands.

I'm sorry for the short chapter but I've been busy so I'll be taking a small break! I hope you all understand, but I'm grateful for all of you, who have been patient with me! I appreciate all the support and love you guys have given my stories!! I hope you all have been doing great and have a wonderful day, but I'm sorry for the mistakes and enjoy the show!!