Her Silence Screamed A Thousand Words

Episode 13

Dua's POV

I was making dua when I heard something fall outside my door. I quickly looked towards the door but saw no one. I even went near the door to check and what I saw drained the blood from my body. I saw Raza hurrying in his room. Shit what if he heard everything?. What if he knows I'm not mute? Ya Allah what will I do now.

The only things I can do now is wait. If he doesn't tells anyone than I'm good. Ya Allah if it wasn't hard before it's hard now. Leaving everything behind I change my clothes and get ready to go downstairs to help Ammi with dinner. Though I have a kitchen up here and everything necessary for me to live alone I don't want to.

I wore a simple white kurti and white straight pants with organza patches at the bottom. I paired my outfit with a colour full dupatta. I wore single gold bangles that I always wore one in each hand. The platinum chain that held the Ruby sat peacefully on my collar bone along with the ruby studded earning that I always wear since Ammi forced me to change them I changed them with the traditional jhumkas hence I wore my studs again. I tied my hair in a braid. My hair is long not extra long not too short. It's waist length I can say. After making my self look presentable I went out of my towards the stairs but not before checking up on Raza, alhumdulilah he was a sleep I didn't have to face him. I went downstairs to the kitchen to find Ammi ordering everyone around on how the food should be perfect and all.....

After the dinner was placed everyone arrived at the table uncle Azan patted my head and sat down just when is was about to sit baba called me

"Dua beti jao jaakar Raza ko bula lao khana thanda horaha hai."

(Dua go and call Raza the food is getting cold)

Nodding my head I went upstairs to his room. Sending a silent prayer to the lord that he just wakes up with a hustle. I walked inside his room not before knocking rather loudly. So loudly even I cringed. One knock.. No response. Second knock... No response.. Hufff what is wrong with him. Is he dead or something? I thought
ya Allah what if he really is? Hastily I opened the door walked towards the bed.

I saw him laying on his stomach which you shouldn't its forbidden in Islam the Prophet SAW himself corrected one of his companions to not lay on their stomachs its the way of laying of the people of hell. I myself try not to and I'm slowly getting used to the habit. I walk close to the bed and crouch down bear the bed. What do I do now shake him? Yeah that's the most logical thing you do when your supposedly mute.

I bent close to is face. He looked like a baby sleeping with his mouth slightly open. His hair was a mess and his face.. His face looked like the most peaceful face I've ever see. My hands move on their on accord and gently stroke his hair.

My fingers run smoothly through his silky black locks. He moved causing me to retreat my hand at once. He groaned for a minute but then went back to sleeping peacefully. My hand again went towards his face.

I caressed his face the light beared tickled my palm in a trance I caressed his face my trance was broken when he started moving and groaning more than before he caught my hand and hugged it still asleep, fear shot through my bones.

"Sadaf" he mummered with a small smile on his face. The silent made it easier for me to hear that. Who's sadaf? Ya Allah don't make me replace someone. I don't want to be a man stealing whore.

Just when I was about to move back he tightened hold of my hand and tucked me forwards with such force that I fell on top of him. My face was so close to is that I could even feel his breath fanning my face. Unlike normal morning breath his was not stinky lucky me.

I gazed into his deeply. Due to the closeness I can now differ the different earthly shades of blue and greens in his eyes. The slight heterochromia in his left eye was now visible.

His hand went at the back of my head and pulled me head closer to his he was looking directly into my eyes as if he can look through my soul I broke out of the trance when his lips lightly brushed against mine his eyes closed. I tried getting up but his arm encircled my waist yaa Allah help. I tried again but his hold only tightened. My eyes would've been wide as a saucer.

"What were trying to do huh take advantage of a sleeping man. Is that what your up to?" He asked. I shook my head vigorously. He might be joking but the position I'm in I can't think straight its been years I've been touched by a man. The caresses and stroking his hair was done in a trance which I can't explain.

I signed for him to get ready to go downstairs and leave me but I guess he can't understand. I could feel the tears stinging my eyes his face getting blured by unshed tears as I remember the same exact thing that happened in the early, happy time period of my marriage.

I remembered how Kashan used to tease me for stroking his hair while he slept or staring at him for too long. When I felt his grip on my loosening I immediately pushed off of him and made a run for the door but couldn't he caught my wrist and I was turned around, my back flushed against the glass window that looks over the forest. He stood right in front of me just mere inches away. His nose almost touching mine. I couldn't almost breath if that possible. My mind was in haywire.

"Where are you going?" He asked.

He buried his face into he crook of my neck. The tears that haven't been shed were now freely flowing. His nose ran along my neck. I tried escaping but he put one his hand right beside my head and the other wrapped around my waist. What did I do? I was just here to wake him up I thought.

"You know..." His sentence was cut in the middle by shahzain bhai's voice.

"Raza come downstairs the dinner is ready." He yelled from behind the door.

"OK" Raza yelled back.

I heard shahzain bhai's footsteps going away when they abruptly stopped.

"Ummm do you know where Dua is baba sent her up to call you?" He asked

"She came to wake me up then left" Raza said while looking straight into my eyes. I searched his eyes for any kind of emotion but none.. I found none. after a while of staring into my eyes he let me go.

I quickly ran to my room and locked myself there I was in no mood of eating all those delicious meals Ammi prepared.

This moment that just happened would've made any other girl giddy but me I can't stop crying

KASHAN WHY DID YOU HAVE TO HAUNT EVERY MOMENT EVERY DAY AND NIGHT OF MY LIFE.

ALLAH HELP ME FORGET ABOUT MY PAST. I prayed while I slid down to the floor. Why did he do this to me?

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