Ambiguous Relationship

Chapter 12: Emotional problem

After Chen Ruo Yu finished the bread, she sat for a little while longer and by that time, the sky had already turned dark.  There were many mosquitoes in the courtyard garden and she had already been bitten several times.  When she looked at her watch and it was nearly 7 o'clock.

Meng Gu did not reply to her text message, nor did he call her, nor did he appear in front of her.

Is this situation considered as she had won?

Chen Ruo Yu threw the plastic bag and empty plastic water bottle into the trash can in the garden before she slowly entered the hospital building and went into the toilet.  After she left the hospital gates, she slowly walked to the bus stop.  All along the way, she did not meet any familiar faces.  She should feel at ease but she was a bit confused about her mood.

Did she really scare that Mongolian doctor?  So after this, he would not dare to casually provoke her, right?  She had used the right strategy and had hit the bullseye.  Her plan was too effective, too satisfying but why did she feel depressed.  What is the matter with her?

She thought for a while and decided she must have been provoked by Nurse Tian.  It was really nasty of Meng Gu, such a big man, to send a woman to deal with her.  It was unexpected and therefore she felt angry.

But now she does not feel angry.  She thinks……ah……what should she say?……the feeling of loss or being embarrassed?

Did she use the right description?

When she reached home, Chen Ruo Yu surfed the Internet.

'Sense of loss'……these words gave the meaning of emotional emptiness or the loss of emotional support and the word 'Melancholy' refers to being sad and depressed because of frustration or disappointment.

This is strange…….  Chen Ruo Yu frowned as she looked at the computer screen.  She did not feel empty, ah…..  She still has so many things waiting for her to settle.  She felt so emotionally enriched that she nearly cried.

Emotional support?  Disappointment?  Which is which?

Her emotional support was not from the Mongolian doctor.  Then what is she hoping for?  Obviously, she had defeated the enemy and won the war.

Liang Sisi walked in with a big bowl, sat down beside Chen Ruo Yu and looked at the computer screen.  Then she stuffed a big mouthful of noodles into her mouth and said incoherently.  "Ruo Yu, by your appearance, you are not at a loss nor are you frustrated.  You have lost your love."

Chen Ruo Yu stiffened and quickly waved her hand.  "Go, go, go and eat your noodles.  Don’t spray me with your noodles."

Lost her love?  Did she lose her love again?

Lost her love twice because of one man?

Wrong!  Wrong!  She had long given up on loving!

Liang Sisi swallowed her noodles.  This time she was able to clearly express her high opinion. 

"If this is not losing your love then there is another explanation ---- feelings of spring*."

(Feelings of springs mean feelings of love for someone.)

Chen Ruo Yu stiffened again.  This is worse than losing her love.

"Ruo Yu, what is the matter?  Recently your behavior is really weird.  If you have any questions on love, you can ask me.  Based on my experience, it is enough for me to write an advisory encyclopedia of love.  I will tell you everything I know and I will tell you everything frankly."