BitterSweet

Chapter 12

Why should I show my work, so they can understand the damn shit they teach or take my knowledge and use it for their gain. Fuck them!

"I know it will make your mother very happy if you found a nice girl and settled down." He throws mom out there knowing I don't like when I've upset her. "Dr. Williams said his daughter is a beautiful and bright young lady, I'm sure you'll get along nicely."

"Of course he'd say that about her, she's his daughter," He wouldn't say she looks like Quasimodo of the Hunchback of fucking Notre Dame who is as smart as a box of rocks, now would he.

"Needless to say, I told him I would give you her number and the two of you can go out on a nice date. Perhaps this coming weekend."

"I don't have money to take her out." I make up my excuse, using a double meaning.

He gives me a pointed look, understanding what I meant by that.

"I don't want to hear this again about your money, Shawn. I'll arrange for you to take the girl to a fancy rrstaurant and I'll pay for it so you have no excuses."

"I'm sorry, did you say, my money, because I could've sworn it wasn't with the way you're holding it hostage."

"Shawn," He sighs frustrated, rubs his hand over his face and pinches his nose. "I don't want to do this with you again. I'm tired of it!" He snaps, banging his first on his desk for good measure.

Tired of me? Maybe he wishes they never adopted me... I know I've thought they would realize what a mistake they made eventually, but I didn't think it was when I was grown.

"Am I really that much of a disappointment?" I try to keep the hurt from my tone.

"Son!" He scolds me. "I'm done with this conversation, I don't want to explain this every time with you. You knew the conditions of getting your trust fund along with the ramifications if you didn't finish college. Your brother finished college and got his degree, look how fast he started his business. Your sister hasn't and you don't see her complaining that she doesn't have her money."

"Yeah, because she lives with you and you spoil her."

"You want the money," He all but growls at me. "You know what you have to do."

I jump up and storm out of his office, slamming the door behind me as I leave.

Fuck him!

"Shawn?" My mother comes out of the kitchen, I'm sure from hearing the noise I'm making.

"What?!" I shout at her. Fuck, calm the fuck down, Mendes. "I'm sorry, mother, I didn't mean to snap at you or slam the door."

She sighs knowing my father and I just got into another argument which would explain my behavior.

"Why don't you come eat now," She suggests. "Your omelet is going to get cold."

"I'll just pick something up on my way home." I tell her.

"I've already made your food, dear." She ushers me into the kitchen, knowing how I am with wasted food. But I seriously do not want to be here right now and someone else could've ate the damn thing. She senses I don't want to be here. "You can go right home after you eat."

Aaliyah and Camila are sitting at the kitchen table, nearly finished eating their pancakes and bacon. And I'm surprised with how calm I'm already starting to feel. It must be the smell of a home cooked breakfast. I take a deep calming breath and relax further.

My mother already has my plate at the table so I grab it, sliding it around so I'm sitting next to Camila who refuses to look at me.

Just like I did last night, I put my hand on Camila's thigh to let her know it's okay that she saw me naked, however, unlike last night, now she moves away. I frown confused because she wasn't drunk when I was touching her so why is she pulling away now? Is it because she saw me naked and is embarrassed or something? I get my answer as I see the telltale sign of blush adorn her cheeks.

"So, Shawn," Aaliyah is very bubbly this morning regardless of how she looked last night. "Mila and I are going to swim after breakfast. Wanna join us?"

I smirk when Camila looks a little uncomfortable with me being invited. She's blushing and wont meet my eyes, hasn't throughout our meal, but I wouldn't miss an opportunity to see her in a bikini. She saw me naked after all, the least I could ask for in return is to see her in as little as possible.

"Sure, Liyah." I wink at Camila and go about eating my breakfast. After eating, I head to my room and change into my swim trunks that I keep here.

CPOV-

I quickly run upstairs to grab my wrap that I forgot, hoping and praying I don't accidently run into a naked Shawn again. Okay, so I do want to see his naked body again, but I made such a fool of myself earlier, I don't know if I can face him again. Thankfully I don't run into him though, and I wouldn't unless he was changing in Aaliyah's room.

Once I'm back outside with Aaliyah, I pull my dress off so I'm now only wearing my swimsuit then walk to the ledge of the pool and sit down as I put sun-protection on my body so my skin doesn't turn red, making me look like some sort of freak lobster.

"Need some help?" I hear Shawn behind me.

Risking it, I look up at him, the sun is shinning bright but he blocks it's view with his body. On their own accord, my eyes drift to his most private area, enjoying his well-defined abs, that sexy V and the start of his oh so happy trail. I blush recalling what I saw earlier, how huge he was, and quickly turn back around without meeting his gaze again. I know he probably looks so smug like he's won some sort of prize.

"Nope." I squeak.

"You can rub me next." He offers. I just know he's grinning, I'm sure of it. Why, when normally that would sound so cocky to me, does it now sound so... hot. I really want to rub him. All. Over.

Instead of saying anything, I quickly finish lathering my body with lotion and then jump in the pool.

"I know you liked what you saw." He calls to me, being the first to bring up me seeing him naked in the bathroom, just out of the shower I might add. I knew he would be the one to mention it, but I didn't think it would be this soon, and with Aaliyah right there. I'm sure she's wondering what's going on.

"Don't flatter yourself, Mendes ." I totally liked what I saw. Who  wouldn't have enjoyed that view?!

I'm sure I can keep away from him here. But how am I going to avoid this very awkward situation once we get back home?! We still haven't talked and it's only a matter of time before I cave completely and give in to temptation and take a big bite of that delicious forbidden fruit. Blush is bound to be ever present around him from now on.

Thankfully before Shawn could get in the pool his phone rang and Karen came outside with it. He had 'business' to take care of, but I don't want to assume anything too much about it, I want to be stuck with my fantasies for awhile. Reality is overrated.

After leaving the Mendes's house that Sunday, everything with Shawn and I went pretty much back to normal. I'm still too shy to bring up the fact that I want him just as much as he clearly wants me and he's went back to playfully flirting with me when he is home, which isn't very often. Though now I blush a lot more around him.
If maybe I had a few drinks in me, I would be brave enough to say we can have sex, but the last time I had liquid encouragement, he turned me away.

I've thought about if I maybe got a little drunk without him knowing I would have enough courage to do something but I doubt it would work. He would somehow know and turn me away if last weekend was anything to go by. He wont do anything if I've been drinking at all. Regardless of how annoying I found the guy to be before, my thoughts about him have changed somehow. I still think he's a man-whore but I want him, I'll admit it to myself now.

And I still can't stop thinking about that kiss, and how badly I want to kiss him again, about how sexy and hard his body looked naked in all his beautiful glory, and how badly I want to see him in that state again. Please. Just once and I could die happy. He's caught me checking him out a few times, more than I normally would. I've checked him out before but now when he sees me, I blush bright red.

Naked Shawn is forever burned into my memory. I could have amnesia and never forget what he looks like naked.
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