Always {yeonbin}

27. 💔

yeonjun didn't know what to do.

he was waiting outside soobin's house unsure of how to proceed past his doorsteps since,
point 1. his mom currently hated him
point 2. soobin currently hated him
point 3. he had no plan whatsoever and was absolutely terrified.

I mean what if soobin didnt want to see him? obviously he didnt want to see him and yeonjun couldn't and wouldn't blame him.

"oh if i hadn't been such a fcking idiot, maybe i wouldn't be stuck i this stupid situation right now" yeonjun muttered to himself.

i mean obviously he wouldn't be stuck in this situation, cause who knows where they'd be if yeonjun had yes. maybe instead of being stuck in the cold out here, he'd be in soobin's arms as they re watched the harry potter a million times or something.
he couldn't help but long for soobin in a time like this, even though he was trying to deny it (which he was a total idiot for doing) he missed soobin. he missed the way the taller would always flush when he flirted with him.
maybe if he'd said yes, they'd be hugging right now, cuddled up on the couch possibly making out-

"NO YEONJUN! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?? FOCUS!" yeonjun mentally yelled at himself, before facing soobin's house again with tears flowing down his cheeks as he contemplated knocking on it for a split second before biting at his lip and backing away.

"i cant do this" he muttered, accidentally tripping and falling into the potted plant near his door making his face pale as he stood up petrified.

"whose there?" a voice rang making yeonjun tense.

he heard the doorknob click and he knew he wasn't ready to face soobin yet... so he ran. he bolted straight out the youngers front yard and down the street towards the empty playground a few seconds down.

while running he felt hot tears flow down his cold air blown face as he struggled to stabilize his breathing. when he failed to do so, he collapsed onto the dome like structure in the middle of the park.

but he wasn't aware of the fact that soobin had seen him bolt away from his house, his tears audible as soobin chased behind him.

the grass felt cold and wet even through his shoes as he stared at the dome structure yeonjun was hiding in, his sobbing audible all the way across the street.

he gathered his bravery as he walked towards the teen who single handed lay crushed his heart before taking a seat on the other side of the dome and leaning on the wall behind which yeonjun was crying.

"yeonjun?" soobin questioned and he could hear the clear pause in yeonjun's breath as he continued.

"why are you crying?" soobin questioned, aware of the fact that it was an extremely stupid question.

no response.

"well if youre going to ignore me-"

"no please, i'm sorry" yeonjun whispered, his voice hoarse from crying and gentle to soobin.

"i'm so sorry soobin... nothing i say can compare to how much i hurt you, i know that. but i was an idiot. i was a disgusting fcking idiot for what i did to you, i know that. i hurt you, my actual real friend, because i was scared of what others would think" yeonjun paused as soobin felt a tiny tear slip out his eye.

"i dont expect you to forgive me soobin, but i want you to know that i'm so sorry, i really like you soobin... i really do and i would never hurt you again. you have every right to be mad at me but-"

"cut the talk man, its confusing you. you talk way to much has anyone told you that" soobin whispered, tears flowing through his own orbs as he crawled into the structure, coming face to face with a red eyed and puffy faced yeonjun.

"what do you really mean to say? cause guess what? i am pissed at you! how could you just break my heart like that huh? i dont care about anybody else seeing it! i hate how you totally crushed me and then started being a jerk to everyone! like do you know how much you hurt me yeonjun?? i felt so confused and hurt" soobin jumbled lightly punching yeonjun's chest before collapsing into it as tears flowed from his almond eyes.

"you left me when i needed you most yeonjun" he muttered as yeonjun wrapped his arms around the taller in front of him.

"i'm so sorry soobin, i dont know what was going through my mind when i did all that, i deserve to be slapped but soobin- i really do love you, i'd give the world for you and i was too blind to notice that fact that you were the only reason so much light had entered me all of a sudden soobin, oh i'm so sorry" yeonjun muttered wiping away soobin's tears before staring into his eyes, soobin doing the same.

"you're such an idiot junnie, but sadly youre an idiot i fell for" soobin mutters as yeonjun gently pulls him upwards, connecting their lips together.

as harry potter would've said their kiss was "wet" but soobin's lips tasted so sweet, like chocolate and plums that yeonjun couldn't help but sink deeper into them making soobin grin lightly.

"so i take it i'm forgiven?" yeonjun mutters as they separate making soobin pull on his thinking face before facing yeonjun again.

"well maybe if you kiss me a few more times-" soobin starts off only to be cut by yeonjun's lips connecting to his again.

"no problem" yeonjun mutters unable to get this ecstatic feeling in his heart to stop as soobin pulls away before looking away at him.

"thats such a weird but nice feeling" soobin mutters before grinning childishly at yeonjun who snorts lightly before placing a small kiss on soobin's forehead.

"help me make it up to everyone?" yeonjun question which is responded by a nod from soobin as he pulls yeonjun up with him and cuddles him in his arms as they walk towards soobin's house.

"of course yeonjun, ill be here for you"

"always?"

soobin's grins "always"