Sanders Sides Oneshots

Good (No Ship)

"Why did you break my heart, Dee? I know Remus didn't want to so why did you make him? Why did you destroy me?"

Silence. He looked at my tear streaked face.

Remus had come to see me after the Asides video. He missed me. And I missed him and Dee. I missed them so much with all my heart. But I could never go back. Dee... he made that clear.

~<•>~

I remember the first time I turned up for Thomas. Dee was the one who convinced me to do it.
"Virge. Don't be scared, ok? He can't hurt you. We just need to make him... aware of us. Y'know?"
He thought about it for a second.
"I just want Thomas to understand himself better. If he can do that then he will find it easier to understand others."
"I'm doing this to... protect him." I said unsure.
"Yeah, to protect him."

~<•>~

He had given me one of his genuine smiles that put Patton's to shame. I only saw it once after that. I went see Thomas and he hated me. But when I came back to them afterwards they helped me.

I was bullied by the others, shunned hated. Thank goodness for Remus' rib-ticklers (his words, not mine!) and Dee's reassurances or who knows what state I would be in. What state would Thomas have been in?

~<•>~

"Virgil your voice was captivating, and my brother's infuriation was amazing too!" Remus squealed, a camera in his hands.
"Virgil, I am very proud. You are doing really well."
"Thanks Dee. And Remus, I think you left some of those carrots in your ears because I sounded terrible?"
"You did great and were just nervous... wait, What was that about Remus' ears?!"

~<•>~

They helped me so much with my self-esteem. Dee loved 'A New Year Of Lying To Myself'. They have a video from the top of the stairs of me singing that song that we did.

Dee barely lied to us ever then. In the videos he does it like it's inevitable but he can control it. He never lied to us. Even when he probably should have. He should have lied to Remus about how he got separated from Roman, but he couldn't bring himself to. He came to me afterwards and confessed how bad he felt about telling Remus.

Remus had come to me after being told. It happens with Patton and Logan too. They come to me because I am supposedly good at listening. Somethings never change.

~<•>~

"Thank you Virgil." Dee said wiping away his remaining tears but not leaving my embrace.
"Why are you thanking me Dee?"
"Because you listen." He replied, his face pressed into my neck. Right now all he needed was the stabilising thought that someone was there.

"Thank you Dee. Because you taught me how to listen." He broke out of the hug and looked at me.
"Are you mad Virgil? I taught you nothing. You are just a...good guy. Who helps everyone, no matter how bad they are."
"You aren't bad Dee!"
"Virgil! I could lie to you, I am a liar!"
"No your not. Your my best friend. And I can tell when you're lying."
"No you can't, but I can tell when you are."
He brightened up a little at the remark he made. Almost like he was challenging me.
"Ok... so maybe I can't but I don't need too. I trust you."

~<•>~

I wonder if things had turned out differently, would it still be like that. I don't know. Was it supposed to go like that?

Now I'm stuck pretending that these people, my best friends, are evil. Roman was right I am the bad guy. Even though they hurt me... I still care because I make them the antagonists when really, it's me.

I don't know when exactly the argument happened. I tried to block it out.

~<•>~

"Virgil. I want you to leave." His face was stone.
"Dee! Remus tell him I should stay. Please." Remus' face was just as cold.

"He's right you shouldn't be here."
"But why? We are best friends. What did I do?" I pleaded, begged I was desperate.

"You are not welcome here anymore."

~<•>~

And then I was gone. The others didn't know my backstory when I was kicked out. Their hate didn't help my already fragile mind. I couldn't tell Patton. He wouldn't understand.

But that's ok, I wouldn't want him to.

Eventually, I was accepted and it was great but I knew there was part of my heart, like the stone of a plum or a hole in a tree, that needed them.

Then they came back. I was scared and angry so I was aggressive, maybe it wasn't good but I did it. I panicked.

Remus came to my room, as I have said already. He asked me how I was doing. He asked me if I was happy. He asked me many questions, all about my well-being. The final question was for a hug. I obviously said yes and told him how much I missed him.

I was so happy I got to have that time with him. I think it helped us both. The plum pit was a little bit smaller and we were both a little bit healed.

And now that Dee was in my room, I just broke down.

"Why did you break my heart, Dee? I know Remus didn't want to so why did you make him? Why did you destroy me?"
Silence. He looked at my tear streaked face.
"Because, you're a good guy Virgil, a good guy who deserves to be with good guys." He seemed almost in tears.
"No I'm not. You both help Thomas, I hinder. I wanted to stay with you." I sniffled. That when Dee started to cry.
"We know that's not true. You are more good then any of the other sides. You are too good for your own good."
"I miss you. I never stopped loving you both." I reached out with my sleeve covered hands for a hug.
"Neither did we." Dee walked into the hug.

The plum pit hole had now been filled. I had my best friends. I was going to be okay. And I was going to continue to be... good.

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I hope that was alright. It was a little theory about why Virgil is with the light sides. Please share your theories as I would love to hear them.

Request are open and I hope you enjoyed this. Have a nice day.

-SiD