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P A T
Monday na. Ni hindi ko man lang naramdaman ang weekend. Parang pumikit lang ako tapos pagdilat ko, may pasok na naman.
Pagdating ko sa campus ay bumalik na sa normal ang lahat. Wala nang mga tarpaulin, wala nang mga palawit, at wala na rin ang mga booth. Mahirap pala talagang masanay sa mga bagay na alam mong panandalian lang. Kasi 'pag oras na nawala na, hindi mo mapipigilang malungkot at maghanap.
Haha, charot. Ang aga naman ng hugot ko.
Gaya dati, tumambay muna ako sa field habang naghihintay na bumukas ang library. Kakaunti pa lang ang mga tao dahil siguro ay weekend mode pa rin sila, kaya nilabas ko muna ang phone ko at nag-Facebook.
Weekend at the beach with my man. #4Months
Post ni Aubrey ang pinakaunang bumungad sa akin. Hindi na kami friends pero dahil may mga mutual contacts kami na nag-react at nag-comment sa post niya ay lumabas din 'yon sa news feed ko.
I checked her profile and this is the first time she has posted in months. Justin and I broke up in January. September na ngayon at walong buwan na kaming walang koneksyon. Akala ko ay naging sila na kaagad matapos naming maghiwalay pero mukhang nagkamali pala ako ng akala.
They look happy and I'm glad that they are. Over the weekend, napagtanto ko na baka kaya nasasaktan pa rin ako ay dahil nami-miss ko sila. Not because I'm upset that they're now together.
Maybe the time will come when I will be able to forgive them both and look past everything that happened. But now . . . I still need a little more time to heal.
I liked their photo and quickly closed the app. I don't know what I was thinking, but I just found myself heading to the studio instead of the library. By now, kabisado ko na ang daan papunta ro'n at umaga naman kaya hindi ako natatakot. Unconsciously, I looked around for signs of Axl. Alam ko kasing maaga rin siyang pumapasok tulad ko.
Nasa isip ko pa rin ang tungkol sa nangyari sa amin no'ng Biyernes at gusto ko sanang makapag-usap kami.
But he wasn't anywhere.
When I reached the door with the AUTHORIZED PERSONNEL ONLY sign, I realized that it's locked and I don't have a key with me. Kung sabagay, hindi naman kasi talaga ako opisyal na miyembro ng banda nila.
I let out a defeated sigh and just turned around, feeling hopeless.
That's when I saw him.
He was standing by the corner of the auditorium and was just about to light a cigarette when he caught sight of me.
His expression instantly turned rigid when our eyes met. I, on the other hand, just froze in place.
I know I was looking for him earlier but now that he's right here in front of me . . . it's like I suddenly didn't know what to feel.
