I'm your home (Yoon Jeonghan x Reader) - closed

XV

Joshua looked at Jeonghan, then the phone. Jeonghan covered his mouth to hide his face which was found to be painted red. Joshua grabbed the phone, scrolled and skimmed and rushed out the door to follow after you without another thought. "Y/n!" was all that was heard. Your name echoed in the hallway along with loud foot steps.

When Joshua got to you, you had just walked out the bathroom after calming yourself. When he saw you he slowed down and walked towards you. Your eyes were puffy and your nose felt stuffy. The tears had already gone and now the absence of the feeling felt even worse than the lump in your throat. Joshua stopped in front of you and put his hands on your shoulders. His head facing down with his eyes looking into yours. Those gorgeous eyes again.

"Look at me" He said, nudging your chin to look at him. Your face was facing him but your eyes were still on the ground

"Please just leave me alone" You mumble whilst pushing his hand off your face, then grabbing your phone from his hand "I'm gonna go home," turning around to walk in the direction of the exit of the building. Not caring about your things, you could just get them tomorrow.

"Y/n." He grabbed your wrist gently, "It isn't that bad, it's just the media." he tried to reassure you. "It'll pass, this happens all the time. No where in my contract does it say this is against the rules, why are you so worried?"

Those tears are building up again, your eyes are shaky and now.. now a rush of anger just overcomes you. "Because!" you try to calm yourself, lowering your tone, you turn around, "Because I" voice cracking "I don't think I like you"

"I don't understand... that's not what you said earlier outside" He sounded hurt.

"I thought I did. I really thought so, Joshua. I promise I thought I liked you. I thought that that moment was the dream I'd been waiting for but... It just wasn't. I didn't want to hurt you in the moment" You wipe your tears. "And the comments? What will they say now? After all of this? To see that the 'mysterious' girl doesn't end up with you?" Your tone is so close to being considered a yell. Then the words come out, words that probably hurt the most, "I wish I'd never met you. I wish Jeonghan never came back. I'm sorry. It would've been easier"

To you, it would've really been easier. You'd still be at the bakery to help and it'd still be open. You would've stayed independent. By yourself. Like it should've stayed.

"I-" He stammers, "Don't apologize. I'm going home" You turn around once again and head down to the exit.

This felt like a movie. All of this. Best friends with a Kpop idol? Comes back into your life and suddenly you almost end up with another idol... Now you have unassured feelings for the best friend. Here's where it gets even more cliche, It's raining outside and since you can't drive and have no money for the bus, you're running home in the rain crying.

Your feet hurt but you get home really late. Countless calls disturbed your painful trip home. None of them answered and the ringing was running your battery. You open the door with the spare key that's hidden under the doormat to find your mom sleeping on the couch again. As quietly as possible you get yourself upstair. Your hair and clothes are soaked. You were so tired and emotionally unstable, you just jumped into bed... Disgusting, but you were gonna wash the sheets the next day anyways. You turn your phone off to avoid any more disturbances and force yourself to sleep.

The next morning, the alarm clock rings. You turn it off and you stare at the ceiling, Thinking about what had happened yesterday. Even though you were tired and drained even after sleeping, you forced yourself to shower and change and change the sheets. Then you kinda just sat there. Attempting to find something to do on your phone, only to find it dead. Your charger was in your bag but you left it back at Pledis. As well as your keys and wallet and other important stuff.

You got up to go downstairs. "Eomma! Do you have a charger?!" You found her just about to getting off the phone. Once she hangs up you ask, "Who's that"

She looks up at you with a smile "It was your Grandmother. She needs company and she asked me to come live with her." That didn't sound like something to be happy about. "What abo-" she cut you off, "I told her that you had gotten a life here" harsh "So we discussed that you could stay here, so you don't have to worry about leaving your job at Pledis"

If anything, you were just about leave your job and new friends... "Everything is already figured out, I'm going to call work to say I'm leaving soon,"

You finally found an opening to ask your questions, "What about the house? The bakery? I'm not gonna stay here alone am I?"

"Of course not, I'm gonna call Jeonghan's dorm to get a room for you, so you can live with them! I trust them, you've known him since you were children, how bad would it be? You're an adult as well, it's about time you've moved out"

This didn't really offend you. She was right, You're 22 still living with your mom. The only problem was, you left off on bad terms with Joshua. He'd probably already told everyone about what you had said to him.

"Eomma, this is all so sudden... What about dad?"

"Your Dad is going to come with me when he comes back from his trips. The bakery was already sold and will be turned into a convenience store, good news right?"

"And the house?"

"We're keeping it, it'll just be vacant"

"That's it? You're just going to leave?"

"Y/n,"

"Stop!" The anger was coming back.

Your Mother was shocked, "Aren't you happy?"

"I... I got into a fight with one of the members. I can't live with them. I'll probably lose my 'job' too. It's not even a job." You were just sick of everything. Mid conversation you got up. "I'm going on a walk" and without response, there you went. Dead phone, no keys, no wallet, no where to go. You couldn't stay at the house. Sure, just a kiss and the whole media was against you. You couldn't show your face at Pledis or to Jeonghan because he probably already knew what you'd said. So what now? Where are you gonna go?