Across The Boundary • Yoonmin

🚫 02; Don't Worry

And i'll use you as a focal point
So that i won't lose sight
of what i want
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Warning; Strong language and mentions of mental abuse 🚫
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"This is a masterpiece Yoongi-hyung! I will absolutely put this in a gallery next exhibit!"

Yoongi giggles at Namjoon's comment and sighs in relief.

Honestly, he thinks the painting was crappy and he was having seconds thought whether to submit it or not.

Good thing he did,

Yoongi hates it when he has to throw away something he worked hard for.

He saw Namjoon carefully put it inside a room where he puts all the painting that he will display on a gallery next week, before sitting down again on his chair.

"Honestly hyung, you really amaze me everytime you step in here. May i know your secret?"

Yoongi shrugs his shoulder and chuckles when Namjoon pouts.

"Fine, i'll let you slide for now."

Yoongi nods and startes to stand up from his seat. He was about to walk his way towards the door when Namjoon spoke again,

"Have you been going to the therapies, hyung?"

Yoongi stops and tensed at that question. He chews his lower lip and looks back at the art director with an apologetic look.

"Ah, i thought Seokjin was lying."

Seokjin. Kim Seokjin was his speech doctor and has been giving him therapies 3 times a week.

Yoongi did went through the therapies, for the first few months but he feels like he isn't progressing at all.

He's still scared, and still hasn't spoken that much, not even a full sentence ever since.

He feels like going to therapies are a waste of time so he stopped going there completely.

"Hyung,"

Yoongi shook his head and continued to walk away, not bothering to heed Namjoon's call for his name.

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He walks into his car with shaking hands as he tried to open it up with his keys.

He's feeling another anxiety attack and he doesn't want people to come and surround him if he ever did;

Because too much people will only worsened his condition.

He quickly hops into the driver's seat when he finally opens it as he breathes heavily; his chest feeling tighter and tighter in every seconds passed.

He tries evening out his breathing and looks everywhere,

5 things he can see
4 things he can touch
3 things he can hear
2 things he can smell
1 thing that he can taste

It was called 'grounding' - a technique that Seokjin taught him to to do whenever he will experience a panic attack.

His breath began to even and he found himself relaxing as soon as he finished those steps. He wipes the tears forming on the corner of his eyes and continues to take deep breaths, before he completely relax.

Yoongi grips on the steering wheel tight and suddenly began hating himself,

But he hates the person who is responsible to why he ends up this way.

It was a fairytale gone wrong, and Yoongi wished he could just turn back time so he can do it all over again.

So he can avoid the time when he met him - and especially the time when he fell inlove with him.

"You shouldn't have existed Yoongi"

"I'm better off alone without you,"

Those painful words keep ringing and ringing on his ears over and over, like a broken record playing on repeat.

"I hate you Min Yoongi,"

Yoongi smiles weakly at himself as he starts the engine, feeling worthless and worthless by the minute.

'Don't worry Chan, i hate myself even more than you did' he thought to himself before driving away.

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AN; i kinda feel bad for yoongi at this chapter.

& Kim Namjoon at the top ↑

Anyways, expect more short chapter like this because sometimes i'm busy and i need to do a quick chapter -