✔️ Not Another PRETTY FACE..

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Tee sat down quietly with his back against the foot of his bed. He haven't moved from his place in the last two hours. Tae's words cut through him like knives. He remembered each and every word.. he remembered the hate and anger in his eyes.. he remembered how everyone else looked at him. They must all think the same about him too. They must all hate him too just like Tae.

Why?
Why is he so mean to me?
What did I ever do wrong to him? 
Am I that disgusting and low? He thinks that bad of me.. no wonder he can't work with me. He hates me.. 
But.. I didn't.. I never hated him.. I actually thought.. I thought..

He started shaking badly as he felt a sudden pain in his abdomen. He held onto it and cried out in pain. Standing up from his spot with difficulty, he went to his side drawer to get his medicine but fell on the bed instead. Looking up at the ceiling, he gasped out heavy breaths. He had no energy in him to call for help. He had no will either. He was just a set back to everyone. 

He remembered it all like it was yesterday, the day he first met Tae Darvid at the auditions for 2moons. Tall, tanned, muscular, quiet and mysterious with the looks of a Greek God, the man was everything that Tee wasn't. And the way he acted his part. To say he actually started worshiping that God that day won't be too wrong. And then just his luck, he was paired with him. Well, was supposed to be paired. 

The first season was all about Pha, Wayo, Ming, Kit and a bit of Forth. He had no part what so ever in it. He was just there to smile for most of it. They all got to be those characters in the novels that many loved but not him. He wasn't even surprised if he was the least liked character out of them all.  He knew it. Well, ofcourse he knew it. He read it. All three books.

He knew the whole story, how Forth would fall in love with Wayo, then get heartbroken and then hook up with Beam. He knew Beam was confused with his protective feelings over Kit and his loneliness after his friends having lovers and would practically beg Forth for the night they shared and then their lives would take a new turn.

Unexpected turn of events. 

They were supposed to be the hottest, most sexualized couple on the show. He wasn't so sure he was up for it. He wasn't even sure about falling for someone overnight just because of good sex was possible when you haven't looked their way for all the long time you've known them. But he was still happy to play it. He loved Beam. It was his favorite character. And to get paired with the person he was looking forward the most to work with, he couldn't wait for it at that time.

Now, looking back at it, he didn't know. Getting fired from the show, they all felt disheartened. But he didn't even get to act. He didn't get to earn his spot as the Beam everyone loved. And would he be able to with a man who hates his guts?

But then again, maybe it was for the best. He was too damn stupid at that time to know he was so irritating to the people around him. To damn stupid to know that Tae didn't like him. What if the others didn't like him either?

Like it matters..

He wasn't as good looking as Bas like P'Tae said or as good a dancer as Copter or even as great performer and actor like P'Tae and P'Kim. He was average. He just wanted to laugh and make others happy because of him. Now only Tae thinks he's useless, then every fan that loved him might think that. They might know he wasn't good enough for anything.. that he was just a pretty looking person who can't sing or act or dance to save his life. They might still think that. Maybe they do.. 

 Maybe that's why khun mae didn't want them to change the choreography because she knew he could't possibly catch up and would drag them down. 

Maybe..
Maybe..