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OPEN BOOK OF POSSIBILITIES

Hi, ako nga pala si Kristel. And i have created a book named "The Open Book Of Possibilities" for the people who have been down and having a negative thoughts in life. Ginawa ko ito ng buong puso, and i must say na sikat na ang libro ko at laging naa-out of stock.

Ngayon ko lang napagtanto na marami pala talaga ngayong tao na nangangailangan ng positive thoughts sa buhay. Dahil madami na ngayong kabataan ang nabubuhay sa depression. And all they need is the Motivation and Possibilities for them to survive.

#TOBOP
-Possibilities and Positive thoughts 1

Have you ever encounter someone in your life that is strange, but that strange will be your strenght. And that strange change your life into a happier as ever. But that scenario will fade because he left. And as he left, all the memories you had with him will now become the most painful thing happened between you too. And you have no choice but to move on, and while you moving on,your emotions stick into one. And that is being in pain, you doesn't feel any emotions like being happy, amazed, surprised etc. Because all you feel right now is pain.

And i feel it. So i want to advice to you all that being in pain is not worth. You cannot encounter something new because you are still in the past. The past that all know is to hurt you. Move on girl, that man doesnt deserve your tears. Remember, girls tears are precious. So they doesnt have a right to hurt you. We are not just woman, we are womans with emotions. And if they can't respect us then leave them. He doesnt deserve you.

~Kleah P.

And that is one of my advices in my book. And as the day pass, I always receives messages about my thoughts and being positive in life. They asking me "Ate Kristel, papano po kayo laging positive? Wala po ba kyong naeexperience tulad namin?" one of my followers asked in twitter. Kaya bahagya akong natawa. "How come that one person doesnt experience a difficult in life?" balik na tanong ko saknya sa twitter.

At nakita ko nman na marami agad nag respond sa reply ko sa comment nung follower ko. 566 reacts in just 3 minutes, ng biglang mag respond uli yung follower ko na nagtanong "Eh pano nyo po nakakaya na lagi kyong positive sa life? Kahit na puno na po kyo ng problema?" and that hits me. Pano nga ba? Hindi ko din alam eh.

Basta ang alam ko lang, im a girl with a fragile emotions. Hindi lang nakikita ng lahat ang paghihirap at nararamdaman ko because i know how to hide and lie. Sa harap ng maraming tao, they see me with my positive thoughts. But the truth is, im one of them. I am down, not just down. Because im stock at hindi ko na kaya pang umangat. My father left us since i was a child, my mom passed months from now because of cancer. But before she died she have a husband. And her husband just raped me, im pregnant 4 months from now. And my stepdad just left.

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"so ms. Kristel how did you finish your book? I guess it is 500+ positive thoughts and advices. How did you do that?" the host asked, so i answered. "Hhaha. I guess i finish it because also of my experienced. Hindi ko magagawa yan ng walang pinaghuhugutan. Hindi nman ako pwedeng gumawa nlang basta basta dahil naisip ko right?"

Sagot ko. Im now at live show they invited me, so why not? "Hahah, you have a point on that Ms.Kristel so can you share to us your pass, your thoughts and experienced?" tanong ng host na nagpabago ng awra ko. Kung kanina masaya at kalmado pako, ngayon nagagalit ako. "AT BAKIT KO NAMAN SASABIHIN HA? DAHIL LANG GUSTO NYO? WALA KAYONG KARAPATAN MALAMAN!!! HINDI NYO AKO KILALA, YOU ALL JUST KNOW MY NAME, NOT MY STORY--" Sabi ko habang nakatayo at tinuturo turo yung host. Habang lahat sila ay nagulat sa inasal ko, kahit ako nagulat din hindi ko natapos ang sasabihin ko ng hinawakan ako ng guard sa dalwa kong braso para pigilan. Ng marinig ko ang bulung-bulungan.

"Hala? Anong nangyari saknya?"

"Bakit bigla syang naging ganun?"

"Nakakatakot nman sya"

"may utak nga, wala nmang ugali. Wala rin"

"favorite writer ko pa nman yan. Sayang"

"idol ko pa nman yan. Tas ganan pala. Nakakahiya"

Agad nagsituluan ang mga luha ko dahil saaking mga narinig, nanginginig akong lumapit sa host upang mag sorry ilang hakbang ang ginawa ko ngunit umaatras sya. "S-sorry" nauutal kong sabi at tumakbo na palabas.

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"May utak, pero walang ugali" naka lagay sa post ng isa kong follower tas nakalagay dun yung picture ko. Agad itong sumikat 1.2k reacts, 936 comments, 3.9k shares. Agad kong sinarado ang laptop ko at tinanggal ang mga luha na kanina pa lumalabas.

Kanina pa ako nakakabasa ng pangbabash at kung ano-anong nakakalait na post tungkol sakin. Tuwing lalabas ako, puro masasakit na salita ang naririnig ko. Simula din nung araw na yun wala nang nag iinvite sakin sa kung anong shows. Ang sakit lang, kung pano nila ako hangaan at purihin dati, gayun din kung pano nila ako laitin at pag salitaan ng masasakit na salita ngayon.

Isang maling galaw ko lng, eto ng naging resulta. Malay ko bang dun ako susumpungin. Ang sakit lang, ang sakit sakit.

"Yung Positive person ka, tas positive ka din sa attitude"

"May pagawa-gawa ka pa ng libro na The Open Book Of Possibilities. Dapat nilagay mo din dun yung advice mo sa maattitude para nainform yung sarili mo"

Message nanaman sakin ng iba. Kaya agad kong ininom ang tableta na makakatapos ng buhay ko habang pumapatak ang luha ko. Without any minute, i see myself with no oxygen and hang in the ground.

People are so toxics, makitaan ka lng ng isang mali kung ano-ano na ang sasabihin sayo. They will judge you, without knowing the reason why you do that. At ako, nagawa ko yun because that is the worst thing in my life, because im suffering in Abnormal Mental Behavior.

Ang sakit lang, na ang ginawa kong Librong "The Open Book Of Possibilities" na punong-puno ng advices ay nihindi ko manlang nagawa sa sarili ko. I created it for anyone, but not for myself. Sana kahit papaano ay matulungan ng libro ko ang mga taong nangangailangan. Kahit wag na ang sarili ko, kahit kayo nalang. I hope you all guys happy judging me.

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