"Woke up to the same old uh oh
Heartbreak cause I won't let go-oh
Six weeks and I still don't know
Who or where we went wrong
Lovesick and I feel so uh-oh
That's it gotta let you go-oh
All good but I still don't know
Who or where we went wrong
One thousand hours, thirteen minutes
Twenty seconds, I finally went and did it
It's about time I finally got over you
Oh I wish
I wish you the best you're freaking useless
If I only ever had one wish, just one wish
I wish I could
Go back, I'm so over everything we had
But if I only ever had one wish, then I'd wish
I'd never met you at all
I wish I'd never met you at all
I'm good never feeling lo-ow
Don't care if you tell me no-oh
Crossed you with a cheerio
Hello that means goodbye
One thousand hours, thirteen minutes
Twenty seconds, I finally went and did it
It's about time I finally get over you
Ayyy
Oh I wish
I wish you the best you're freaking useless
If I only ever had one wish, just one wish
I wish I could
Go back, I'm so over everything we had
But if I only ever had one wish, then I'd wish
I'd never met you at all
La-Da-Da-Da-Da-Da (Yeah) [x3]
I wish I never met you at all
La-Da-Da-Da-Da-Da (Yeah) [x3]
I wish I never met you at all
Now you're looking dumb diddy diddy diddy dumb
You check up, check up on me now you're looking like a bum
You're looking like a bum diddy diddy diddy dumb
I wish I'd never met ya
I wish I'd never met ya [x2]
Woke up to the same old uh-oh
Heartbreak cause I won't let go-oh
Go-ohohoh...
Oh I wish
I wish you the best you're freaking useless
If I only ever had one wish, just one wish
I wish I could
Go back, I'm so over everything we had
If I only ever had one wish, then I'd wish
I'd never met you at all
La-Da-Da-Da-Da-Da (Yeah) [x3]
I wish I'd never met you at all
La-Da-Da-Da-Da-Da (Yeah) [x3]
I wish I'd never met you at all
Ooohh..."
The girls sing as I watch from the back of the studio's corner. They sung it at my request and as a little gift for getting out of treatment. Camila smiles at me as Ally runs over to me, pulling me by my arm into the studio. Mani laughs at my shocked expression as DJ is practically hitting the ground in hysterical giggles. I roll my eyes confused.
"Why did you pull me into here?" I ask.
" We saw you singing those lyrics out there, we wanted to hear you!" Lauren grins.
"What? No!" I protest. They sigh, I look at Camila who shares a sly grin with Ally. Oh, God. This can't be good.
"Get her!" They both shout, charging at me. I jump out of the way, leaving them to tickle Lauren instead. Lauren laughs as she goes down.
"She's over there!" Mani shouts. They look up at me, and back down at Lauren.
"Oh, well. Sorry Lauren. Now. Get her!" Camila shouts, charging at me once again. Dinah gets me first, tackling me to the ground, tickling me majorly. Four more sets of hands tickle me.
"H-Help! I-I'll s-sing!" I scream." Love Me For Me, Cher Lloyd."
"Phone rings
Don't wanna pick it up
I'm so scared
I'm gonna say too much
I tip toe around your questions
Why you gotta dig so deep?
Tears fall
And the glasses break
Inside these walls
The floor boards shake
But from outside
It's alright
Long as you looking from fifty feet
I been trying trying
Hold my head up high
I been lying lying
Keeping it all inside
Trying not to trust you, yeah
Take another leaf, I'm a book yeah yeah?
I'm done, I give up
I don't wanna pretend no more
That's it, so what?
I've lost a friend before
Gonna say it like it is
No more wondering "What if?"
That ain't the way you oughta live
Cause I don't want you to love me
If you don't wanna love me for me
Cause I don't want you to love me
If you don't wanna love me for me
A doll house is all that you could see
But it's so far from my reality
I got problems, I got issues
Sometimes it's all too much for me
Wrap it up with a pretty little bow
But there are some things you can't sugarcoat
So I give it to you anyway
Even though it won't taste so sweet
I been trying trying
Hold my head up high
I been lying lying
Keeping it all inside
Maybe I could trust you, yeah
Take another leaf, I'm a book yeah yeah?
I'm done, I give up
I don't wanna pretend no more
That's it, so what? So what?
I've lost a friend before
Gonna say it like it is (I'm gonna say it like it is)
No more wondering "What if?"
That ain't the way you oughta live
Cause I don't want you to love me
If you don't wanna love me for me
Sick of all the fighting
All the slamming of the doors
The pain, the parents, too deep to ignore
Step back, step back
Can you see it through my eyes?
I know, I know
It may be a surprise
Don't wanna be perceived for something that I'm not
Just wanna be accepted for the little that I got
If you could see me now in my glass house
Not ready to let you in
Oh, yeah yeah.
Not ready to let you in
I'm done, I give up
I don't wanna pretend no more
That's it, so what?
I've lost a friend before
Gonna say it like it is
No more wondering "What if?"
That ain't the way you oughta live
Cause I don't want you to love me
If you don't wanna love me for me
Cause I don't want you to love me
If you don't wanna love me for me
Cause I don't want you to love me
If you don't wanna love me for me" I belt out. The girls are clearly shocked.
We exit the building, I have to go back home, which I'm pretty pissed about. I hop into the car with Camila and Lauren, as Troian lives on the way to their's so they can drop me off.
"I'm back." I walk upstairs to my bedroom and slam the door hard. A knock sounds at my door, Troian most likely, unless Keegan is back from his photo shoot. I suppose I have no choice except to let her in. I open my door, sure enough, Troian stands at it.
"Yes? How may I help you?" I say with a glare and a sour sound to my voice.
"I want to explain, Adrienne. I'm really sorry. Can I come in and explain?" Troian asks, her eyes pleading. I can see her guilt.
"Fine." I say flatly, stepping away towards my bed. She sits at my desk chair, sensing that I don't want her near me.
"I've been acting out because of some news Keegan and I received while you were gone. Keegan and I both wanted a baby. When I wasn't conceiving it properly, we went to get it checked out. The doctor ran some tests and told me that... That I-I'm inf-fertile! I c-can't physically b-birth children! The o-one thing a w-woman is s-supposed to b-be able to do! A-and I can't! Keegan left me due to that, the wedding is off." Mom sobs into her hands. Guilt floods me,coursing through my veins. She's gone through all of this alone, and the way I've made everything so much harder for her. God, I'm a terrible daughter. I walk over to Mom and wrap my arms around her, muttering small nothings to help soothe her.
She pulls herself together and looks up at me, red eyes and tear tracks ruining her make up. Suddenly, she pulls me onto her lap as I'm a small child. I don't complain, instead, I wrap my arms around her neck, and bury my head in her hair. Simply enjoying the fact that I'm back.
"I love you, Mom." I say. "And if Keegan can't see how wonderful you are, he's a douchecanoe. Yes, I just said douchecanoe. It's his loss. Now I don't have to share you. You're all mine!" I laugh a bit at the last part. I feel Mom smile slightly.
"I love you, too, baby. And he is a douchecanoe. I think. Wherever do you come up with these things? Some time I'd love to take a peek into that little mind of yours." Mom says.
"Oh, no you don't. No one should have to go into there. It's a dark, scary place. The farther you go into the depths of my mind, the more scared you will become. I can't let you in there." I bust up laughing. Mom laughs lightly.
"Okay, that doesn't worry me at all.." Mom chuckles, rolling her dark eyes. "Well, I'm very proud of you for recovering so well. Tomorrow, we can do anything you want."
"Yass! Let's go to that trampoline place!" I scream, forgetting that I'm right next to her ear.
"Okay, and owwww." Mom complains. I laugh, muttering a 'sorry.'
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Troian Bellisario Adopted Me
FanfictionAdrienne has,always had it rough. From when she was abused from ages 5-10, to bring sent to a large amount of foster homes that hated her. When a special person is looking to adopt, will Adrienne's life change?
