Andrew

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We talked some more and than we decided to leave. Shawn stopped for my house. I wanted to go out the car but Shawn stopped me. "Y/n....."

"Yes?" I asked. "Uh were okay right?" Shawn asked. "Yes we are... okay" I said. Shawn sighted in relieve and I gave him a soft smile. Were okay, okay, just okay Y/n I kept repeating in my head. Am I really falling for him? Am I really falling for.... Shawn? I didn't know by myself. I go out the car and walked inside my house. My mind is an total mess right now. And I have to clean it, before we leave for tour... in 4,5 weeks. I walked to my room. I grabbed my notebook and started writing... a song?
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Tearing my heart in two, doing what you do, best
Taking me for a ride, telling me pretty little lies
But with you, I can't resist
Before I met you, I never felt good enough
Before I let you, in, I'd already given up
Left on read, no reply, left me just wondering why
Now I'm skeptical of love
So when you hold my hand, do you wanna hold my heart?
When you say you want me, is it all of me or just one part?
So when you hold my hand, do you wanna hold my heart?
When you say you want me
 
( boys like you from Anna Clendening, but in this story Y/n wrote it.)

I wrote it down and I felt tears rolling down my cheeks. Why am I crying? He isn't my tears worth.... he is more worth. No Y/n stop it. You have to get him out your mind.... not every 'love' story has an happy ending...
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"Hey darling, How was your day?" My mom asked. She walked in and sat next to me. "Just an normal fun day" I said and gave her a smile. "Why did you cry baby?" My mom asked. "I don't even know mom, My mind is an mess..." I said. "But you can clean up" my mom said. "I will help you" My mom said making me smile. "No mom this mess, I have to clean by myself" I said. "Okay baby, but if it too much, please tell me" My mom said. I nodded. My mom grabbed my notebook and readed it. "Shawn" She said. I nodded softly. "He isn't my tears worth it" I said. "Well if he wasn't worth it, you wouldn't feel so bad now baby" My mom said. The thing that hurted the most that moment, is knowing that she is damn right. "I am a mess mom, my life is a fucking mess..." I said. "That is life baby, I know it is hard... but true love, can really hurt" My mom said. "Mom?" I asked before she walked out my room. "Do you think that Shawn is the one for me?" I asked. "From the first time I saw him Honey" My mom said and gave me a smile. She walked out my room. Y/n, how did you end in this mess?
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I walked to the mirror and looked at myself. Ofcourse he doesn't like you, he probably never did. "Look at those eyes, they are not blue enough. Look at this noise, too big. Look at those lips, too small. And look at this eyebrows, too different. I am not enough" i whispered against myself. A tear rolling down my cheek. "You are more than enough" a voice said behind me. I turned around and saw.....