Being the son of a businessman isn't easy, and Ji Nan knows that to well. So when he was forced to move he made sure to not let anyone know about his fathers income. He even made sure not to let anyone get to know him, but when he is tasked with tut...
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"No," I said quickly turning to face him. As our eyes met I could feel the blood rush to my face.
"So just me then?"
When he asked this question he raised an eyebrow and smirked. I shifted my eyes and stayed silent because in truth I didn't know how to answer that. It's not like I go around kissing dudes, but every sentence to defend myself I ran through in my head sounded bad. Dammit.
We stood there in silence for a minute before Ba Wei cleared his throat. I looked up at him to see that he was walking towards me. I immediately began to step backwards.
"What are you doing?"
"I'm going to the roof," he responded. "That is where I told you to come."
I was about to try to explain why I was somewhat late, but before I could he had already started walking up the stairs. I stared at his back for a minute and ran a hand through my hair. This isn't going good.
I stood there until Ba Wei was out of sight before I started to climb the stairs. With each step a scenario played in my head, and none of them were good. Why was I overthinking this. All I had to do was apologize for doing something weird but I didn't want to. As much as I wish I could say I didn't enjoy that kiss I couldn't. What is wrong with me?
When I stepped out onto the roof I noticed that Ba Wei was sitting against the railing. You can do this. I slowly walked over to him and took a seat beside him. He glanced at me but didn't say anything and I didn't say anything either. I looked over at him and began to pick at my fingers. Just say it. Even if you don't want to.
"I'm," I started. My heart was beating fast and even though I didn't want to say this phrase I knew I had to if I wanted things to go back to normal. "I'm sorry."
When that sentence left my mouth Ba Wei immediately looked at me, and even without looking at him I could feel his eyes on me.
"Why?"
"For kissing you."
I could physically feel my throat drying out as I finished that sentence. It was a lie, and even the thought of putting that sentence together made my heart hurt. I was waiting for Ba Wei to say something, but he didn't. I looked over at him to see that he was looking down at the cement ground. He hates me. He thinks I'm gross.
"I know I must have freaked you out so I apologize," I said quickly, "I was drunk and I know you must think I'm gro-"
Before I could finish that sentence lips pressed against mine cutting me off. It took me a few moments before I realized what was happening. He's kissing me. Ba Wei is kissing me. My eyes widened as Ba Wei pulled away. I was speechless. In all honesty I was in shock. I didn't know what to say or to do so I just sat there staring at him for a few minutes. As I looked over his face for the first time I could read it. Nervous. He was nervous.
"Why did you," I asked as I touched my lips?
"Because I wanted to."
"What do you me-"
"I don't think you're gross," he started. " I actually think you're very much cute."
As he said those words he didn't look at me once. even though he had just called me cute I didn't react at all. Wait, he doesn't think I'm gross?
"Wait so you don't hate me," I asked confused?
"No. why would I?"
"I," I started. I didn't understand anything that was happening. I went through a million scenarios in my head and none of them involved Ba Wei not being upset. In this particular situation I didn't know how to react at all. He said he didn't think I was gross. What do I do with that information. My mind was blank and I just stared at him.
"Do you regret kissing me?" This sentence caught my attention and my eyes snapped to his. I wanted to say yes, but it wouldn't leave my mouth and in the end I just was honest.
"No."
My voice came out as a whimper and I shifted my eyes to the ground. I heard a chuckle come from beside me and I immediately looked over at him.
"I'm glad because I don't regret kissing you," he said as a smile spread across his face.
My face began to heat up as I processed what he said. I cocked an eyebrow and Ba Wei reached a hand out towards me. Before I could react his hand landed on my head and he started to fluff my hair. My eyes widened and I quickly moved away.
"What? This surprises you but me kissing you doesn't?"
"That's not it," I said quickly. I knew my face was the shade of a strawberry, and as usual it amused Ba Wei.
"You're so easy to fluster."
He was smiling as he said this and I just looked at the ground. I didn't say anything in return and silence followed. I thought it would awkward but it wasn't. It was pretty comfortable. If I'm being honest, I didn't think he would speak to me again. Yet he was sitting beside me right now. He even kissed me. I couldn't help but wonder if he actually was interested in men. Interested in me.
"Do you usually kiss men," I asked slowly
Ba Wei let out a laugh, "Why? Getting jealous?"
"No," I said rather quickly. "I'm just curious."
Even though I said that I wanted a certain answer. I wanted him to say that I was the first guy he kissed. Even thinking such a thought made me feel childish.
"No, but I've always been interested in men." He ran a hand through his hair and glanced at me, "you are the first I've kissed though."
I couldn't help but smile slightly after hearing that sentence. Wait, why am I happy about this? I couldn't answer that question but I did know that even looking at Ba Wei gave me butterflies.
"I can't say that I've always been interested in men," I started, "but you are the first guy I've kissed."
"I'm glad I'm your first."
I ran a hand through my hair and looked over at him. As I stared at him I felt the urge to kiss him. I furrowed my eyebrows and bit the inside of my cheek. Stop thinking about it.
I turned my attention back to Ba Wei and I noticed that he had gotten on his phone. I leaned over slightly and noticed that he was playing mahjong.
"You're playing that game again?"
"What," he looked up at me, "I like it."
I chucked, "you're a childish handsome guy." He looked back down at his phone and I could see the fault smile that spread across his lips.
"Is that a complement or an insult."
I reached out and ran my hands through his hair. It's soft. Ba Wei's body stiffened and my heart beat sped up. I should have removed my hand after I reached his nape, but I instead let my fingers linger there. I let my fingertips brush against his skins and to my surprise Ba Wei relaxed and went back to playing his game. How strange.
